I know it sounds kind of weird, but it's a thing! I've heard of lemon juice or honey citron being used in places as well, though more common internationally. I usually put just a splash if I do it but it's pretty good!

I got worn down eventually too, and I don't regret it in a virginity sense exactly, but it still hurts in an "I let someone trample my boundaries" way, so I get it. It's still a loss. But I'm so sorry that happened to you, and hope the poem helped even a little 💜