also getting ppl to open up abt themselves is like pulling teeth actually.

curled up in my room cold sweating fighting to not puke and no one gives a shit dude

who remember that period of time. and god addressing it as it rlly is, dissociative amnesia vs just calling it the wall has really changed my mental framing of it.

being a poor child surrounded by affluent areas is a huge part of the equation. those drs wanted easy to treat depressed rich patients, not an undiagnosed autistic kid constantly in crisis for several years straight. like, some outright just said no and didnt give me any chance according to ppl+

like nice sentiments from ppl online was sweet but irl this shit is fucking ass i think im just gonna sleep through the rest.

if i can get imaginal ill b happy but i=l works for now uee

ive already been fucking frozen in terror like twice in one day over fucking noises.

its not normal to get so anemic less than 12 hrs after taking iron that ive been cold sitting directly in front of a heater. its just not. and it keeps getting minimized.

i really just want to know if i have cancer or something but its going to take a life or death fucking crisis thats going to put me in severe debt i cant pay to get care ig !