Put words in my fucking mouth twist my meaning No. I ain’t having that shit. You get One. Try again and I’ll flip

Been stuck in the same fucking place for too long and know I’m never gonna get out of it. Not now. If it’s my life I get to choose when it ends right? Why can’t it be right now? One good god damned reason. Give me one.

No future for me or any of us anyways why keep me here. Why. Just let me do it

if he doesn’t though. if neither of my parents listen then I gotta cut off from them I think. cause I won’t stand for it anymore. One last effort n if it doesn’t work then I’m done with them.

I gotta I gotta I gotta I gotta

and today we cut ourself again, in a safer spot, with a sharper cleaner blade and more control. Throughout all of this we have been imbibing heavily of alcohol and weed, too. Off and on. Mostly in the evenings. was sober for today’s cuts, just to make sure. like we said. a looong week lol

It’s gonna be a loooooong week

We have the Note sitting in our phone. Wrote it down last night too lol. fucking hells that got Bad

We rlly need a therapist don’t we lol

But we didn’t. We got that bit away from us, and took a blade to our skin instead, enough to leave a mark. It hurt. It needed to. The worst part is still, I can’t tell my partner. We’re not sure if that’s normal, or healthy. It’s hard to tell when we can barely tell what’s real.