i think i shot myself in the foot a little with these being both 100% handmade AND small/fast enough that i priced them pretty affordably & tried to “mass produce” them by hand. i’d rather spend more time on something rarer or less time on something easier/cheaper, lmao

i really appreciate this decisiveness 😂 i think what i’m gonna do is try to make as many as i can for the Hanukkah market and/or one last online hurrah, then say they’re retiring in this incarnation. definitely the golem zine will still be available!

i don't know if i want to officially "retire" them or if i just want to publicly acknowledge that i'm taking a break & letting myself off the hook for them not being available more than once a year if that. i can feel myself pulling in some different directions artistically & i want to follow that

for a few years now i've felt like i couldn't allow myself to update/restock without adding at least 10 because so many people want one - & to be clear that is a huge compliment & a "good" problem! - but i also feel kind of chained to them in a way that's making me avoidant

part of this is that i prioritize my illustration work & other life obligations, but i feel like maybe i gotta come clean about the other part...

which is that i put it off because i'm sick of making the golems. they are my #1 most requested item, i have made literal hundreds of them

thank you! 🖤

got my flu shot like a month ago, i mask everywhere in public (which has meant i've only been sick with a cold or a virus ONCE in the past 5 years), idk

i am disabled enough already, imo, i don't need more long-term shit to manage. that's why i still take the precautions i do

true! just rough when the amount of rest your chronically ill body often needs is not compatible with the society you live in ⚰️

thanks friend. trying not to anxiety spiral out about whether or not this could be more/lasting chronic shit 🙃

tested negative for COVID multiple times. no fever. intermittent "sick" feeling (headache, exhaustion, maaaaybe some throat/chest congestion?) but mostly it just feels like my body gives up after a few hours of being awake. not sure if it could be a weird flu

what’s actually happening is that people are starving for romance built on friendship, devotion & trust between equals, which almost NEVER exists in straight/mainstream romance writing but is abundant in straight/mainstream “buddy” dynamics

“let men be friends without making it gay” let me into your fantasy world where gay men dominate the media, PLEASE

we’re definitely gonna check out the show after this, don’t worry

in addition i've been watching through the 7-film Chucky collection with my partner 😂 this is all first-time for me, they'd already seen 1-4, we were both in a lot of pain today so we watched Seed of Chucky & it definitely helped. idk how i slept on these for so long

maybe this is horror heresy but i found the original Blair Witch to be fairly disappointing! it's a fine line between "showing way too much" & "showing basically nothing" - most horror movies fall on the former side, TBWP falls on the latter, Ghostwatch walks it like a professional

not only was this seemingly the actual first to do it, it remains one of the best? a movie that understands visual restraint & the value of a well-delivered, spoken ghost/horror story. everyone in this movie sells it 100%, no wonder people lost their minds War of the Worlds style

i feel lucky & i’m also posting this from bed. there is so, so much more i would be making & sharing with you if i could manage it