Nothing reminds me of the human capacity for obnoxiousness like being automatically enrollled into 5 emails a day newsletters whenever I sign up to anything.

I think it's time to divorce social competence from personal value. Like, yes, every interaction I have is a potential hilarious failure but that's fine? People can be bad at e.g. chess but they won't tie their self worth to it.

There's a crippling disconnect between the emotional state I expect my public personality to embody and how I actually feel.