I miss them.

Ugh, ok private enough. Denko, great art Denko. I thought we had a friendly and distant relationship.

*sigh* friendship hard..

Exhausted crying is a terrible way to get to sleep, but it's all that works when I get to this state.

My coworker said I'm the most positive, chipper person he's met. And.
I try? But when I break at night, I break hard.

But i have to stop ugly scream crying at night about it. I hate being pushy. I hate being rude. I hate not being friendly enough, or too friendly.

And I've been socially doubting myself. Trying to tell myself that folks just need their time and space and I have to stop trying to get what I want.

Im so scared of being a bad friend again.

Maybe it's just human brain stuff. I need to chill.