This is my BIGGEST struggle as an Autistic person. 😭

'You're adopted'

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(For the non-palaeo folks, this is in light of a newly published paper re-establishing that #Nanotyrannus, previously understood to be a juvenile #T.rex, is indeed its own genus after all.)

There is nothing happening in the world today worth abandoning your trauma or addiction recovery over.

The rubber meets the road in recovery when intolerable sh*t happens. Feel what you feel- but don't get tricked into harming or abandoning yourself today.

We need to remember that because our entire emotional or physical state doesn't change dramatically the moment we use a coping tool, doesn't mean the tool doesn't work. Shifting our emotional & physical state requires consistency & momentum. We gotta be realistic w/ expectations.

Abusive people & institutions will try to mind f*ck you by throwing all sorts of shade & judgment your way for not being able to do a thing-- while at the same time withholding the tools & support & resources you'd need to do the thing.

Once you see it, you can't unsee it.

You need to know that your motivation in trauma recovery is gonna fluctuate. It doesn't mean you don't "really" want to recover-- it means you've been insufficiently resourced & supported in the past, & your nervous system is ambivalent about committing to hope.

Easy does it.