My fave distraction

He got spooked by a ghost, but it feels appropriate for how bad I feel today </3 also I love them too, been playing since release almost

Like how many more things can go fucking wrong this week? How much more do I actually need to suffer for the world to prove its point?

I can tell people I write, I'm a writer, I've written hundreds of hours of works. But I have literally zero to prove it. The only proof is me saying it. The only proof would be writing hundreds of hours more and not losing it, but I can't. I lose my most prized possessions every time.

I don't deserve a nice trip, I know that, so I guess the world is trying to remind me that I'm supposed to have nothing, get nothing, and be miserable forever. I'm just so devastated day after day this week, I feel so hollow inside now. Nothing even matters anymore.

Week 2 : this week was quite a mess, but I lost that weight I gained plus some extra. Now I just gotta keep it up so I can be under 50kg for my anniversary with my bf next Sunday and eat without any worries.

cw : 50.4kg/111.1lbs (19.2)
-0.6kg/1.3lbs

Cw: 50.4kg/111.1lbs (19.2)

Gw (update when passed): 49kg/108lbs (18.7)