Tbh I think this is the first time since we both got COVID in 2021 that they get sick and I catch it. Usually our immune systems are pretty opposite and we just get sick one at a time

a little moody, but full - from the tacos A made, even though we were dysregulated and upset, from the hug and then the joy in sharing about hobbies - I'm just. feeling a lot of things and feeling a lot of grateful and waxing -- Poetic, I guess?
it's a weird night but it's mine and I'm glad.

It feels like something glowing and new, comforting and nostalgic all at once. It feels like high school at 2 AM online, and it feels like being 30 watching netflix together via zoom and it being the Sense8 and being so so so gay, and it feels like now- a little tender, a little depressed 4/5

it feels like those soft, scary, boundless times in my first solo apt in 2020; after the end of a 7 year relationship, stuck in lockdown, so uncertain and lost, but then slowly striking up something special via texts and twitter and DnD with a hot nerd across the country 3/5

I had no idea how soothing this would be for my millennial internet-raised soul. I've almost entirely switched to laptop for work and TV for media thanks to chromecast and it feels so right to be sitting in bed in soft lighting just meandering through. Add in the fact that I just texted A? 2/5

@ologies.bsky.social anteater episode?
Or alternatively, @nome.bsky.social thread?

www.nature.com/articles/44498

Sources:
www.instagram.com/p/CzJYPIbLe5...

Is this a reputable source? I dunno. Is the information accurate? No idea.
But it's PRETTY and tickles my brain
youtu.be/rW9H1BhBBTw?...

Anyways if someone wants the best explanation of having a hyperactive/ADHD/neurodivergent brain I've ever seen (for myself) watch Charlie Nebe's video My Brain Is A Symphony
youtu.be/oWIH4j1l9zQ?...

It's not just the worry and stress about the world - that's just Life right now. It's specifically the internal hyperactivity and overwhelm from having a discordant orchestra of thoughts, and loops of sound and potential conversations playing over and over like a dvd menu waiting for me to act

My brain is scrambling for purchase on a mountain of ideas and directions and projects and half-formed thoughts about how to cultivate community locally via art - and when it reaches a desperate peak of needing to do *something*, it falls apart and my body feels it and I suddenly can't stop crying.

And currently, a lot of my thoughts revolve around community building, wanting to get involved, wanting to build resilience in my circles so I can feel safe, wanting to be an artist whose art is activism, fiber arts and how they tie communities together, etc etc.