I finally got to explain why I was so bad with my job at the time, one I loved with people who were really looking out for me and knew my sibling. I'm really happy I could finally tell that detail to them

I got to share a real big one last night. A moment which was when 🟥 was really starting to come around and he was a huge issue and hazard to my mental. He was angry that he was stuck with someone that turned out to be "so useless" and battered the hell outta me trying to get me to do what he wanted

The situation being Being A Person Suddenly

I forgot I can't edit posts on Bsky, so yeah, don't worry about the list of colors here💧 I'm just gonna update the bio one as things change. Because turns out things are still changing with that

Yo thanks for the good wishes, seriously. I really appreciate that

It's definitely a weird road to go down, especially since it's been in my peripherals for as long as I could remember, but it honestly does feel nice to finally see what it is

Best of luck to you and your journey down this road <:

Speaking of which, 🟫 tried helping again and I thought it was 🟧, to which I got a No from 🟧 and a "Who the fuck was that" from 🟫, and I'm once again finding the comedy in how no one really has a set job in the system so much as someone goes "Yeah I can/wanna do that" and takes the wheel

He didn't do great at pretending to be me when asked if I was okay, but that's okay. I was mainly asked by my sibling who I recently told the truth to

This thought brought to you by: me praising the fucking heavens that 🟫 barely spoke,has an understanding on how to make a set table look really nice, and is good at listening

It almost makes me wish I went full amnesia instead of whatever this is so I can maybe get help for it instead of it being chalked up to bad memory

I guess out of all the possible fictitives I could have had, I should have expected this one at least somewhat

He's been around in the past, but never taken the reins until today

The thing I miss the most about living in Boston was chatting with strangers. I once spent an entire day with a guy I literally met that morning, and we were having such a good conversation we ended up hanging out for the rest of the day shooting the shit about art and life

People are good

What a fucking mess. I wanna go home. I don't want this to be a problem other people have to get roped into. I just wanna have a nice holiday with my family. This is supposed to be a nice holiday

This isn't quirks not mixing. This might actually just be him being so locked in whatever this mode is that he's unintentionally being an asshole, and because Mom doesn't know that this has been the norm for a while she's coming to bat for him because she sees how quickly he then sets me off

Or, more so, him getting so defensive so fast with me doesn't even give me the opportunity to clear the air with him before he starts accusing me of being something I'm not. He's not being patient with me and is doing things that make me immediately lose patience with him