from: me
to: me

but what is the point of 9-5 and self preservation if i have no support network and no time (either money) to enjoy this world

for me, life is about to understand and to be understood. to take care and to be taken care of

maybe the problem is my lack of community

or maybe i'm healthier than in my teens??? idk i just remember being obsessed or indifferent, and now i can learn to care, but i need time. before it was an instant "yes or not". it leads me to dangerous places but i felt more human than now

my first need is to be known in a safe place.

i don't want to be accepted or tolerated, i need to be understood, and for that i need a safe place to be myself

i'm trying to be responsible. trying to respect limits, to be open to uncomfortable conversations, to accept negatives... but it's so tiresome if i don't learn how identify my own needs and how to say my own noes