and then have the audacity to bitch that someone else, who works more then you do, goes back to bed as soon as they get home
i'm not handing out pity points today i don't fucking care anymore
man the fuck up jesus chirst
2/2

like don't try and use that as a gotch ya when i have said
many times
i will buy it myself
if i genuinely want food i'll go myself???
even if i have to walk??????

i'm fucking tired of getting stuff spoiled for me when i actually want to go in blind. 2/2

i think my depression is just acting up worse then usual
like it gets bad but fuckin hell man i've never been this tired of everything

i also guess i just kinda
feel burnt out on life in general
i'm just tired all the time
a lot of games i like i just don't enjoy much anymore

its that kinda burn out and i really don't like it
i like doing art, i really fucking do

this is a personal issue (funny i know for someone like me) and i can't expect everyone to just stop for one person
but i'm just tired and in a really bad place mentally and randomly seeing that someone died doesn't help in places where i actually enjoy to vibe in
3/3

i have no issue with people who want to talk about it
nor am i saying people shouldn't
it just messes with me when that seems to be
the only thing talked about and out of nowhere in places it honestly shouldn't be
its one of those annoying moments of
2/??

i'm not some big artist who can easily get another commission
i don't know people that can easily throw money my way for random stupid art
i have to do this
but i need to get better at telling people "No. I can't draw that OC/pose"
i shouldn't put myself in pain because i need money

can't even refund cause they won't take it
i really need to update my TOS

just a few more months
and i'll be out
i won't have to talk to them anymore

the days they're gone are the fucking best
i don't feel like i'm drowning

not my fuckin fault once ya'll get here theres so many dishes in the fucking sink that it looks like one giant mess