so much of my psychology (cf. my fear of my own body existing in 3-space in conjunction with and proximity to other bodies, which I've been talking about on main tonight) *is* built around a paralyzing fear of causing harm I do not wish to cause

Transphobia is visual. Whether you pass is down to luck. Whether someone clocks you as a trans woman and mistreats you when you really are just a guy with long hair is down to luck. I got top surgery in 2022 and didn't pass until 2025. No one can magically detect this shit. They're guessing.

It probably makes transmedicalists feel really bad that their problems are not in fact unique, that trans people who don't meet their standards are still subject to family abandonment, loss of meds and insurance, conversion therapy, homelessness, and joblessness. This destroys their self-concept

images that spring to mind unbidden, part 851: "a small but non-zero chance that seeing Cthulhu will make your ninja turtle gay"