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@ryuugamine.bsky.social
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⚠️ suicide & general mental illness discussion TW ⚠️
⚠️ suicide & general mental illness discussion TW ⚠️
i have been killing myself in my head over the same thing for weeks now and i have barely even beeen able to talk to anyone privately about it omfg just kill me already
February 13, 2025 at 2:55 AM
i have been killing myself in my head over the same thing for weeks now and i have barely even beeen able to talk to anyone privately about it omfg just kill me already
i keep typing up paragraphs about [thing] and then deleting them because it sounds stupid. WHATEVER
February 7, 2025 at 6:15 PM
i keep typing up paragraphs about [thing] and then deleting them because it sounds stupid. WHATEVER
imagine if cis people were like trans fetish p/rn helped me embrace my own sexuality. that's how fujoshis sound when they say fetishizing gay men is actually radical kweer praxis or whatever. btw i don't think all BL is inherently fetishistic -- far from it in fact but this particular argument sucks
February 6, 2025 at 11:32 PM
imagine if cis people were like trans fetish p/rn helped me embrace my own sexuality. that's how fujoshis sound when they say fetishizing gay men is actually radical kweer praxis or whatever. btw i don't think all BL is inherently fetishistic -- far from it in fact but this particular argument sucks
i will be such a good boyfriend but first i need to stop being a pussy
February 4, 2025 at 1:42 AM
i will be such a good boyfriend but first i need to stop being a pussy
thinking about how ralf is turning 9 this year makes me so sad i know that's not that old for a cat but i want him to live forever
February 1, 2025 at 1:44 AM
thinking about how ralf is turning 9 this year makes me so sad i know that's not that old for a cat but i want him to live forever
idk who needs to hear this but while an alter may present a certain way in headspace for various reasons that is not an excuse to claim experiences that are not yours e.g. having a transfem alter while being TME or an alter that is japanese while being white
January 23, 2025 at 10:37 PM
idk who needs to hear this but while an alter may present a certain way in headspace for various reasons that is not an excuse to claim experiences that are not yours e.g. having a transfem alter while being TME or an alter that is japanese while being white
if i shared my thoughts on the yume/selfshipping community as a whole i would be executed
January 17, 2025 at 11:29 PM
if i shared my thoughts on the yume/selfshipping community as a whole i would be executed
it's really bad this morning and it's making work difficult WHO ELSE CHEERED!!
i keep getting hit with random waves of paranoia and feeling like i'm being watched let's all just die
January 11, 2025 at 3:55 PM
it's really bad this morning and it's making work difficult WHO ELSE CHEERED!!
i keep getting hit with random waves of paranoia and feeling like i'm being watched let's all just die
January 11, 2025 at 1:55 AM
i keep getting hit with random waves of paranoia and feeling like i'm being watched let's all just die
why do THINGS keep happening to me
January 8, 2025 at 10:19 PM
why do THINGS keep happening to me
we are having a REALLY hard time finding a place that will reevaluate me for autism for OPWDD and it's stressing us out so bad my mom used the fuck word (she usually never does this ever)
January 7, 2025 at 5:57 PM
we are having a REALLY hard time finding a place that will reevaluate me for autism for OPWDD and it's stressing us out so bad my mom used the fuck word (she usually never does this ever)
the one thing that scares me is that my last ex, upon meeting me irl, suddenly realized he wasn't attracted to me and it;s like. what if that happens again. am i really that ugly LMAO
January 7, 2025 at 1:26 AM
the one thing that scares me is that my last ex, upon meeting me irl, suddenly realized he wasn't attracted to me and it;s like. what if that happens again. am i really that ugly LMAO
why is my mom like this
+ she knows i don't like talking to him directly because he hates me and i'm scared of him
+ she knows i don't like talking to him directly because he hates me and i'm scared of him
January 6, 2025 at 6:22 PM
why is my mom like this
+ she knows i don't like talking to him directly because he hates me and i'm scared of him
+ she knows i don't like talking to him directly because he hates me and i'm scared of him
my fav cat at work isn't doing very well :( his mobility issues have worsened and he's not eating much among other things. he's only 7 or 8 years old so it's making me really sad
January 5, 2025 at 5:54 PM
my fav cat at work isn't doing very well :( his mobility issues have worsened and he's not eating much among other things. he's only 7 or 8 years old so it's making me really sad
i'm this close to redacting all public mentions of me having DID i cannot stand what socmed has done to a disorder that ruins my life
January 4, 2025 at 4:46 PM
i'm this close to redacting all public mentions of me having DID i cannot stand what socmed has done to a disorder that ruins my life
anyway i wish rent didn't suck up most of my income i genuinely wish living with my parents didn't make me want to die x
January 4, 2025 at 3:52 PM
anyway i wish rent didn't suck up most of my income i genuinely wish living with my parents didn't make me want to die x
i have no horse in this race but i do think people need to specify when they're talking about *white* americans when talking about the USA. "americans will never know what it's like to experience imperialism or genocide" Black and indigenous americans do? hello
January 4, 2025 at 3:36 PM
i have no horse in this race but i do think people need to specify when they're talking about *white* americans when talking about the USA. "americans will never know what it's like to experience imperialism or genocide" Black and indigenous americans do? hello
the way i made this account because i was really suicidal and then my mental health immediately got better
January 2, 2025 at 2:29 AM
the way i made this account because i was really suicidal and then my mental health immediately got better
i haven't kissed anyone since i was 17 *smiling with bloodshot eyes* if 2025 isn't gay as hell i'm giving up on everything
December 30, 2024 at 2:19 AM
i haven't kissed anyone since i was 17 *smiling with bloodshot eyes* if 2025 isn't gay as hell i'm giving up on everything
anyone else tired of people using NPD as shorthand for "abuser" or just "person i don't like." like yeah people with NPD CAN be abusive but it's not fair or accurate to carelessly throw that diagnosis around
December 28, 2024 at 6:18 PM
anyone else tired of people using NPD as shorthand for "abuser" or just "person i don't like." like yeah people with NPD CAN be abusive but it's not fair or accurate to carelessly throw that diagnosis around
animal death // one of the bunnies passed away while i was off work... i'm really sad. it was the gray one
December 28, 2024 at 2:24 PM
animal death // one of the bunnies passed away while i was off work... i'm really sad. it was the gray one