platonic eyeball fingering
@ryusaidate.bsky.social
aitsf spoilers // i'm panta i'm an adult i'm the number one saito/ryuki fan and this is not a contested title.
aini spoilers 2zuki
October 23, 2025 at 6:43 AM
aini spoilers 2zuki
aini spoilers 2zuki
October 23, 2025 at 6:30 AM
aini spoilers 2zuki
i don't need you to be with me (just try to remember what you see in me)
October 21, 2025 at 1:32 PM
i don't need you to be with me (just try to remember what you see in me)
i was planning on only posting porn on here until the fifteenth and/or i get banned but chances of me having that much ability to do particular things are incredibly low so i'll probably just start mirroring later..... weh.
![show your preemptive appreciation for all the good posting i will do this month. blorbo questions or if i haven't made it clear if you have drawing questions i will drop everything to make 5 paragraphs several diagrams and a list of free reference materials any account any time
i spend about as much time Thinking About It as i do actually drawing so i can 99% guarantee i can at least point you in the direction of something that will help especially if it's a "i've tried googling 'how do i draw X' fifteen times and it's never helped" question
born to [solar sands] forced to [reading yaoi instead of voice training].
or you can ask "what was this bit in your fic about" "what's your favourite thing in your fic nobody's noticed" and i'll say "i have a self imposed commitment to death of the author". it'll be fun!](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:jkj4u65g6uklbgs75bdzhoox/bafkreicxnlahze552mbvibrw2pyvpykj5vdalshzd66vwb4uv3oalnnsw4@jpeg)
October 3, 2025 at 1:45 AM
i was planning on only posting porn on here until the fifteenth and/or i get banned but chances of me having that much ability to do particular things are incredibly low so i'll probably just start mirroring later..... weh.
answering questions i asked people to send because i am bored. you can send questions in on straw page rysdt.straw.page and i will forget to put them here. spoilers (for the game and my fic i guess)
![continued from last image: ... it's the easiest way to show saito as a narrator. there's a lot of declarative statements about things he doesn't know, and most of it is stuff he isn't thinking about. these things are said because they're for the camera, because he's filling the objective POV role of a screenplay.
you lie in fiction, you lie to the audience, but the screenplay exists behind the curtain. it is all available information, it is truthful. if there's one thing i keep a focus on the whole way through it's ways in which characters manufacture an objective voice for their lies. some of that was cart before the horse with making 'unreliable narrator' the third tag on the fic, but i do really enjoy it as a concept.
and that's the take on the acting thing i do find compelling, the objectivity of it. the tag isn't "SAITO (in Date's voice)", he is date as he is perceived as such, and in doing so there is no room for date in the script. more i could say here about how saito perceives people vs their bodies in the actual game (especially lines changed in localization) but that's too off topic for how much i'm already talking
the other thing is the routine. it's a voice of knowing exactly what will happen, you know what's going to happen when something's already happened before. it's rote, it's rehearsed, it's... you know. mizuki and [date] have formats for expressing that concept, but saito does not have a way to not express that concept. it has all happened before, even if from a different position, and it is going to happen, no matter what.
i suppose if there's something it 'represents thematically' it's the 'cyclical hurt' in 'love, cyclical hurt, and making the best of a bad situation'](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:jkj4u65g6uklbgs75bdzhoox/bafkreigdz3co4lsiitalqjo72sqnsshfelumnuzyovsxyipo52x7swnbte@jpeg)
![kataga asked: What were the intermissions about in your fic? It’s Saito’s format, but who are Girl A and Girl B?
response: intermissions are about getting up to go to the bathroom and buy more popcorn i think
saito's format... hm. are the call transcripts [date]'s format? it's something that's happening, and it's showing a way that objective information is delivered to the audience in the interest of lending credibility to the person using a similar format. but if that's the case, maybe i should have started with it like the transcript while i was already going back to add things......
i don't think it's too hard to work out who Girl A was, but if there is a point, it's sort of that they're the opposite of the call transcripts. here's the material facts of a conversation between two people, the exact time it happened, what was said, and the bodies they are in -- and here's a conversation happening at some time, between two unclear people, and a focus on what was meant rather than what was said.](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:jkj4u65g6uklbgs75bdzhoox/bafkreie3lbngmk3hgcchu35i5uzufxwplqwoylrzaxfdx27ekv52ycikje@jpeg)
October 3, 2025 at 1:45 AM
answering questions i asked people to send because i am bored. you can send questions in on straw page rysdt.straw.page and i will forget to put them here. spoilers (for the game and my fic i guess)
aitsf spoilers nsfkd spoilers boy the compression sucks on that. is this any better
August 21, 2025 at 2:16 AM
aitsf spoilers nsfkd spoilers boy the compression sucks on that. is this any better
( aitsf spoilers + nsfkd spoilers )
i hope this reaches you
i hope this reaches you
August 20, 2025 at 12:25 AM
( aitsf spoilers + nsfkd spoilers )
i hope this reaches you
i hope this reaches you
the implication with the exclusion category including. Dangerous Stunts. have to make sure that your drawing of blorbo doing a backflip and eating shit isn't glorifying harm
August 18, 2025 at 8:56 AM
the implication with the exclusion category including. Dangerous Stunts. have to make sure that your drawing of blorbo doing a backflip and eating shit isn't glorifying harm
well that's probably fine. you know me i love not glorifying harm. and my opinion on the things still hard banned are that they're illegal where i live and i love following the laws of my beautiful country
August 18, 2025 at 8:56 AM
well that's probably fine. you know me i love not glorifying harm. and my opinion on the things still hard banned are that they're illegal where i live and i love following the laws of my beautiful country
sl- *COUGH* slow da- *COUGH HACK SPLUTTER* sorry something stuck in my throat. here's darumi amemiya's list of eroge recs and i trust her with my life
May 31, 2025 at 9:48 AM
sl- *COUGH* slow da- *COUGH HACK SPLUTTER* sorry something stuck in my throat. here's darumi amemiya's list of eroge recs and i trust her with my life
and one process test in question. look at him. thank you
May 26, 2025 at 1:21 AM
and one process test in question. look at him. thank you
hundred line spoilers (route 0), eitaku
very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files
very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files
May 26, 2025 at 1:21 AM
hundred line spoilers (route 0), eitaku
very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files
very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files
rysdt.straw.page finally bothered to put a link to this site on my strawpage (loud sigh)
May 17, 2025 at 11:17 AM
rysdt.straw.page finally bothered to put a link to this site on my strawpage (loud sigh)
( hundred line ) the majority of humanity is completely rotten! the smell is terrible, so let's throw them all away
May 15, 2025 at 10:37 AM
( hundred line ) the majority of humanity is completely rotten! the smell is terrible, so let's throw them all away
( aitsf spoilers ) i have one contractual obligation and it's may tenth
May 11, 2025 at 2:53 AM
( aitsf spoilers ) i have one contractual obligation and it's may tenth
minor aini spoilers
May 7, 2025 at 8:10 AM
minor aini spoilers
( aitsf spoilers , saito/ryuki ) bauny.
April 23, 2025 at 11:56 PM
( aitsf spoilers , saito/ryuki ) bauny.
![tweet running over into red text reading: ryuki is like chained to a radiator in the chemical plant. mizuki is spiralling trying to convince herself that killing saito made her feel Cool And Good And Fixed All Her Problems because [sunk cost fallacy? the only thing that's sinking is a knife into his chest] and ryuki is just out of a six year abusive codependent relationship where the main thing he had affirmed is that he is fundamentally a bad person and the only way for his guilt to be absolved is through being hurt. mizuki is going to take any and all denial about saito actually being dead (god forbid the hallucinations/confusion over time) as a sign that ryuki doesn't feel sorry. they're going to invent new types of torture and it will fix absolutely nothing](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:jkj4u65g6uklbgs75bdzhoox/bafkreibektkurd6m3fwlr6tp2v34awboeotcwonuej7sgclnxaz4v7aub4@jpeg)
