TW: CSA, CSEM, Torture, Trafficking

Its 1:40 am and all I can think about is saying words I don't know how to describe. I have the courage to talk about my trauma but I don't know how to put it together in a way that will make sense or won't endanger my family if this goes viral.

I love it when having amnesia can mean anything from "when was the last time I showered" to "an entire section of my childhood memories are just inaccessible to so I can't tell why my behavior is like this even though I know it's an unhealthy trauma response". /sarc

Like yes, I love when my

Sorry I forgot bluesky existed for a bit, I've been dealing with some family issues IRL and that's been causing our amnesia barriers to increase as a protective measure.

For good news I sent my mamaw a bouquet of flowers with a box of chocolate and a stuffed animal, she said she loved them.

I talked to my therapist yesterday about some experiences I had as a child, she believed me. I don't have hard evidence like a lot of people do, but I suppose what I did have was enough to help her believe in something as crazy as what I went through. I'm very happy she's my therapist and that she

DID is a lot more than just having alters. It's amnesia and forgetting half your life and the people you love, it's derealization, it's complex PTSD, it's emotional disregulation, it's scary sometimes and it's confusing. It's far more complex than just alters.
#DID #OSDD #DIDsystem

*Disclaimer*

I am not the only person with DID ever, I will never be able to talk about someone else's DID experience because I do not have their DID, their trauma, their reactions, their needs. I just have my own experiences and trials and tribulations to talk about.

Last night I met someone else with similar experiences to me, I didn't prompt them or ask them before they described something really similar to what I experienced. I'm anxiously awaiting talking to my therapist today. Hopefully she can help me.

#DIDsystem #Therapy #Healing #Anti-endo