The worst is that he's made them publicly disown us, made them believe I abandoned them, and made them both violent to their mothers/ his ex-wives he himself would attack...
Just. Like. Dad.

...I don't even want revenge, I just want my girls back.

I've been keeping myself in control, trying to not lash out or see everyone as a potential enemy... And folks are making it more and more difficult to not go back to intimidation and violence to keep people back. I know this'll pass, and I'll talk to my therapist bout it, but shit's tough today.

I implore you, those whose hearts were in the right place, who wanted to see the place we call home to be safe, fight alongside us, rise with us as comrades and fight alongside us, as we seek to bring life, liberty, and true happiness to our fellow countrymen!

But some of you didn't get it... Some of you are living a piss 9-5, after all those promises and reassurance, pain from shit you had no clue you were exposed to and having to pay out the ass to get relief for, the nights where you can't escape what you did... I understand and I am so so sorry...

YOU GAVE AND GAVE, YOUR COMRADES FOUGHT AND DIED BESIDE YOU, AND ALL THEY WANT TO GIVE YOU IS A CHECK AND TELL YOU TO NOT HIT YOUR WIFE?!? YOU DEFENDED OUR COUNTRY!!! YOU DESERVE PROPER HEALTHCARE! YOU DESERVE OPPORTUNITIES TO THRIVE! THESE BASTARDS TOOK ADVANTAGE OF YOU AND YOU DESERVE HUMANITY!

Neither I nor my bloodline will ever negate what you gave; your courage and adherence to your oath will always have my respect and should we find ourselves fighting capitalist-tyrrany "Domestic", it would be my honor to fight alongside you. But I would also ask you... DO YOU SEE THIS AS FAIR?!?

I've friends who have witnessed things no alcohol nor drug will erase; friends breaking down, lamenting how they, "fought for oil!", to even feeling like they've nothing worthwhile anymore...
But I remember you.
I also remember how this government took advantage of you...

Most of these people, the friends to be honest, I have seen go to war. I saw these people I love, go off to fight and potentially die to defend this "life" our leaders say others seek to end, or it's a duty to "introduce freedom" to someplace, calling you a "hero" only to toss you aside afterwards

Let US ALL of the #working-class, those with and without, come together, unite as a collective, and care for one another. Let us grow friendships, form unions, break bread as friends and eventual family, and come together against a government that will abandon us to further line their pockets.

I alone am responsible for my soul, while they guide and advise to what may be virtuous.
I do not mind what you believe in, as it isn't my business, so long as we do not come into conflict, and I would respect the same. You may bless me, we may raise a glass, but my salvation is mine & mine alone.

Where one would feel lost or afraid, I have found freedom.
Concerning these "Gods"... I show respect, learn their wisdom, and can CHOOSE to take on their qualities to self-improve. I learned the freedom to "Walk freely with as a friend and student", than "Kneel before in fear and loyalty".

Now, I have given up faith and rather realize I've created something else.
I no longer worship nor rely on any God or Diety, as Musashi taught in his Dokkodo, as well as recognize that I alone have ultimate power, responsibility, and authority over myself; nobody else. (NG/NM)

By elementary school, I was already "enlightened" to my mortality, and how I would be judged for my "sins" (so can't be a kid, gotcha!), while I saw everyone else do whatever they wanted. Over time, I spoke of what I was taught and they enlightened me to the freedom they had in their hearts.