Rostin
rostin.bsky.social
Rostin
@rostin.bsky.social
Mid-life discovered Autistic
Possible AuDHDer
Monotropic
Yoga teacher
Autism trainer
CPTSD
Exhausted
Still in the game….

Happy Solstice!
December 20, 2024 at 7:01 PM
I realise I risk othering myself by perhaps appearing pedantic to some. The cliche autistic person. The irony is not lost on me. However, it bothers me so I push back where I can….
December 20, 2024 at 5:12 PM
It’s a philosophical/political point that despite differences (not deficits), we have a shared humanity. Humans are neurodiverse, it’s a significant part of why we have survived so long as a species. Together we are strong (arguably, a little too strong and too dominant an animal!).
December 20, 2024 at 5:12 PM
Please don’t ‘other me’, we’re all neurodiverse, I happen to be neurodivergent, but still very much within the normality of different types of brain/nervous system.
December 20, 2024 at 5:12 PM
I pushed back on training materials today that described me as neurodiverse and I spent time explaining why it’s important to get it right to two colleagues this week.
December 20, 2024 at 5:12 PM
Disclaimer: Fully appreciate how privileged that may sound. Those that know my history and my destroyed mental health, don’t see me as privileged at all. Perhaps a little desperate and game for trying anything to soothe and find peace.
December 18, 2024 at 12:23 PM
That’s most interesting. I feel that as I age I am becoming more monotropic or perhaps it’s that I’m less willing to attempt to be polytropic or to put up with the consequences of doing so. Fascinating. Looking forward to seeing how the research evolves….
December 18, 2024 at 12:14 PM
Awful to endure, but ultimately cathartic…. eventually. Very misunderstood phenomena. I also hate them but easier since I know what they are and I’m not “crazy”.
December 14, 2024 at 2:29 PM
Yes, accessible recruitment and putting in place reasonable adjustments in the workplace that have been asked for, are very much needed. A lot of employers make the right noises but don’t truly put this in place and some still don’t care.
December 10, 2024 at 8:04 AM
I’m with you! Fighting the good fight too!
December 9, 2024 at 4:57 PM
I enjoyed reading this. Such clarity and wisdom. I experience similar themes in my life. Thank you for all that you do.
December 7, 2024 at 9:30 AM
Yes! Thanks for articulating this. That feels familiar!
December 6, 2024 at 7:36 AM
My mind felt much sharper and I was able to focus more keenly than I have for months! No double empathy problem to be solved, just cracking on! Hope it continues…..
December 6, 2024 at 7:21 AM
I tend to think about/describe it as internal presentation, which is perhaps more common in female autistics. Same traits but not as visible to the outside world.
December 5, 2024 at 8:36 PM
Yes! The juxtaposition of being full of humour, whilst also being intensely serious about everything! Didn’t realise my seriousness until it was mentioned in my assessment, then I asked around and others who know and love me concurred! What a ride!
December 4, 2024 at 8:02 AM
It sure is fascinating, as well as hard. We all have to navigate our own way, I guess. Here’s an interesting article, perhaps you’ve come across it, but just in case: emergentdivergence.com/2023/05/08/m...
Mask on, Mask off: How the common understanding of Autistic masking is creating another mask
This post was authored by Tanya Adkin Over the years I've been privileged enough to play a part in the discovery journey of what must be hundreds of Autistic
emergentdivergence.com
December 3, 2024 at 9:11 PM
Great question. I think it’s all of them, in one big, swirling dynamic. For myself, I don’t believe there is ‘an’ authentic me underneath & trying to pursue that left me no better off. So I focus on making myself as comfortable as I can, given my experiences and current environment.
December 3, 2024 at 9:11 PM
Thanks for sharing. Loved this. I think that unmasking is very complex. For me, at its heart, is self protection. Masking & what I call ‘fluffing up’ my communication, gained me friends & made me less lonely, but it has come at a different kind of cost. Trying to drop the people pleasing thing now!
December 3, 2024 at 5:25 PM
Exploring similar themes & I concur! I struggle to let go of the pushing through strategy and I’m tweaking in similar way that you describe to honour the needs of my body whilst also keeping my job (privileged as it is to have one!) Always fearful of the final KO happening. Great thread, thank you!
December 3, 2024 at 5:03 PM
I also take multivitamin and calcium. At a limited food choice stage (again) which I hope I can tackle properly in 2025, after you know what. Planning to eat healthily at the moment is too much and creates pressure that my nervous system is unable to handle, so I go with what I can. Best wishes all.
December 3, 2024 at 7:47 AM