scary!1979 + Arquius
@rockstarbonnie.bsky.social
“What a fine day to come here and say
that your face and flesh I must play!”
^ Corny and edgy
that your face and flesh I must play!”
^ Corny and edgy
I am experiencing a werewolf transformation but I am still plagued by shit I don't care about. Thanatophobic episodes
Doesn't matter how high I get
I'm so tired. Why do I have to see my thousands of deaths every time I try to relax
Doesn't matter how high I get
I'm so tired. Why do I have to see my thousands of deaths every time I try to relax
December 16, 2024 at 8:56 AM
I am experiencing a werewolf transformation but I am still plagued by shit I don't care about. Thanatophobic episodes
Doesn't matter how high I get
I'm so tired. Why do I have to see my thousands of deaths every time I try to relax
Doesn't matter how high I get
I'm so tired. Why do I have to see my thousands of deaths every time I try to relax
I keep having my PTSD physical responses to things I genuinely do not care about let alone "emotionally" remember. I feel like that is somehow worse than feeling connected to your trauma because at least it feels logical. This does not
December 4, 2024 at 5:51 AM
I keep having my PTSD physical responses to things I genuinely do not care about let alone "emotionally" remember. I feel like that is somehow worse than feeling connected to your trauma because at least it feels logical. This does not
I offer little to no substance for those around me. I fear that I no longer hold wisdom and my advice is meaningless. That my emotional intelligence is too low to maybe even "read the room"
I still try, of course, and will continue to
But I cannot help but to think I make for a bad friend
I still try, of course, and will continue to
But I cannot help but to think I make for a bad friend
November 26, 2024 at 3:00 AM
I offer little to no substance for those around me. I fear that I no longer hold wisdom and my advice is meaningless. That my emotional intelligence is too low to maybe even "read the room"
I still try, of course, and will continue to
But I cannot help but to think I make for a bad friend
I still try, of course, and will continue to
But I cannot help but to think I make for a bad friend
Loneliness results in delirium. A flailing display... Social boundaries are paper thin and you become overbearing. You make it worse when you realize this aloud. Spewage ensue. Stop. Shut up. They are walking backwards, you are scaring them. They don't say it, but you are...
November 24, 2024 at 9:56 AM
Loneliness results in delirium. A flailing display... Social boundaries are paper thin and you become overbearing. You make it worse when you realize this aloud. Spewage ensue. Stop. Shut up. They are walking backwards, you are scaring them. They don't say it, but you are...
Glorification and romanticization of BLANK inescapable fate for all of mankind and my own reality. Please go away I know it is real but it is not art. Please stop. Please stop. Please stop.
November 24, 2024 at 7:49 AM
Glorification and romanticization of BLANK inescapable fate for all of mankind and my own reality. Please go away I know it is real but it is not art. Please stop. Please stop. Please stop.
I could never fall in love with someone tangible... It would scare me so badly. Not because of vulnerability, and having someone see deep into my soul. That doesn't bother me. Loss is what bothers me. Touch scares me, heartbeats especially make me go faint
November 23, 2024 at 8:50 AM
I could never fall in love with someone tangible... It would scare me so badly. Not because of vulnerability, and having someone see deep into my soul. That doesn't bother me. Loss is what bothers me. Touch scares me, heartbeats especially make me go faint
Drugs no work. Thoughts sporadic. Can't sleep. So scared. Can't look at love in the face without jolting and withholding a scream. Not fun times.
November 23, 2024 at 8:33 AM
Drugs no work. Thoughts sporadic. Can't sleep. So scared. Can't look at love in the face without jolting and withholding a scream. Not fun times.
Actually about to start freaking out because there is no food at all. Haven't been for days but now it is truly bare in here................
Feeling 🥩 Ravenous 🥩
Feeling 🥩 Ravenous 🥩
November 23, 2024 at 3:18 AM
Actually about to start freaking out because there is no food at all. Haven't been for days but now it is truly bare in here................
Feeling 🥩 Ravenous 🥩
Feeling 🥩 Ravenous 🥩
I really wish I had the Vent app in my life still. Whatever.
November 22, 2024 at 7:15 AM
I really wish I had the Vent app in my life still. Whatever.
Trigger warning for uh things I guess. From this day forward I will eliminate trivial things from my past. I have never dated, never been used for my body, used as an emotional crutch, touched, looked upon, or anything else. I am a virgin soul and have never experienced the world. I am reborn *grin*
November 20, 2024 at 8:50 PM
Trigger warning for uh things I guess. From this day forward I will eliminate trivial things from my past. I have never dated, never been used for my body, used as an emotional crutch, touched, looked upon, or anything else. I am a virgin soul and have never experienced the world. I am reborn *grin*
My apologies but also not sorry but something is BUGGING ME BADLY. It is Democrats and liberals. Continually seeing them blame people who didn't vote for "the lesser of two evils" for her downfall... There's so much to say about it.
November 20, 2024 at 12:37 AM
My apologies but also not sorry but something is BUGGING ME BADLY. It is Democrats and liberals. Continually seeing them blame people who didn't vote for "the lesser of two evils" for her downfall... There's so much to say about it.
The drugs did not work 🤗
November 19, 2024 at 7:07 AM
The drugs did not work 🤗
I can crack jokes all I want and act all cocky and arrogant, but the truth is more wince worthy. I am nothing yet I primally act against that grain. Not out of spite, but because I am simply afraid. And what exactly I'm afraid of is up for interpretation.
November 18, 2024 at 5:51 AM
I can crack jokes all I want and act all cocky and arrogant, but the truth is more wince worthy. I am nothing yet I primally act against that grain. Not out of spite, but because I am simply afraid. And what exactly I'm afraid of is up for interpretation.
When panic rises, it eventually will knock me out cold anyways after the adrenaline stops. Though I must admit this is not a 100% success rate, and I will instead shiver and shake for hours unable to sleep in any case
November 18, 2024 at 5:47 AM
When panic rises, it eventually will knock me out cold anyways after the adrenaline stops. Though I must admit this is not a 100% success rate, and I will instead shiver and shake for hours unable to sleep in any case
Anyways.
Okay well Huddleverse can burn to the ground, I guess I'll just say terror on here despite how "unsafe" it feels. Not on this account, though. On RockstarBonnie
November 18, 2024 at 5:41 AM
Anyways.
The comfort of someone who has no room to judge due to the complete lack of prior interaction. They do not know me. I cannot bring forth my shame to those closest to me. It would be most unbecoming.
November 15, 2024 at 7:41 AM
The comfort of someone who has no room to judge due to the complete lack of prior interaction. They do not know me. I cannot bring forth my shame to those closest to me. It would be most unbecoming.
A wife with no body, how does she feel? A wife with nobody, how does she feel? When paired together, wives turn to wife. In essence they become one in the same. A wife with a body and a wife with somebody. A differing reality but a reality nonetheless
November 15, 2024 at 5:42 AM
A wife with no body, how does she feel? A wife with nobody, how does she feel? When paired together, wives turn to wife. In essence they become one in the same. A wife with a body and a wife with somebody. A differing reality but a reality nonetheless
On another note, perception doesn't just extend itself to visuals, but something deeper. I will never grasp what makes people interested in me. I am told I am "cool" all of the time, but what warrants that? What is it about me, someone with 0 substance, that is cool to people?
November 14, 2024 at 5:01 AM
On another note, perception doesn't just extend itself to visuals, but something deeper. I will never grasp what makes people interested in me. I am told I am "cool" all of the time, but what warrants that? What is it about me, someone with 0 substance, that is cool to people?
I have a very warped perception of, well, perception. I am a transexual but also naturally ambiguous a bit, so I either wish to be bald, fat, and hairy OR a beautiful thin woman. No in-between, yet I *AM* the in-between. Mirrors are like an abusive lover
November 14, 2024 at 4:54 AM
I have a very warped perception of, well, perception. I am a transexual but also naturally ambiguous a bit, so I either wish to be bald, fat, and hairy OR a beautiful thin woman. No in-between, yet I *AM* the in-between. Mirrors are like an abusive lover
Today's topic: reliance!
It is aggravating living in a world where one must rely on others who simply do not do their job. I understand that some people require many breaks and life gets in the way, but sometimes I feel like it is "unacceptable" or "inexcusable"
It is aggravating living in a world where one must rely on others who simply do not do their job. I understand that some people require many breaks and life gets in the way, but sometimes I feel like it is "unacceptable" or "inexcusable"
November 14, 2024 at 12:03 AM
Today's topic: reliance!
It is aggravating living in a world where one must rely on others who simply do not do their job. I understand that some people require many breaks and life gets in the way, but sometimes I feel like it is "unacceptable" or "inexcusable"
It is aggravating living in a world where one must rely on others who simply do not do their job. I understand that some people require many breaks and life gets in the way, but sometimes I feel like it is "unacceptable" or "inexcusable"
I will say that I will miss Vent for having no limitations on characters, so what I say here will be greatly reduced in length. We will make do. :-/
November 12, 2024 at 5:08 PM
I will say that I will miss Vent for having no limitations on characters, so what I say here will be greatly reduced in length. We will make do. :-/
Hi*I say so shyly* welcome to my domain
November 12, 2024 at 4:46 AM
Hi*I say so shyly* welcome to my domain