oouh nvm there goes the headaches why is this a thing......

despite my head kept on making noises i kinda appreciate how "quiet" it is

my head hurts and this sucks

i want to disappear so bad you don't understand man 😂

only if i could actually reach out and talk properly. but man, oh man. i never felt so alone. i cant approach some of my irl circles and bother them about my condition because everything sounds like i'm making it all up!!

god i would love to push it, but my entire existence is declining, i am actually in constant pain. i have to FIGHT every single fucking moment just to get that will to live.

i was never like this before. i believe that i was fully functional.

> i am already begging, actually on my knees to take a break even for a year and get myself continuously checked. i genuinely cant. do it anymore.

"but you're so close, you've got one semester left"

> i failed a subj
> i havent got my ojt
> my fucking capstone group already left me
> i an unable to graduate along with my batch

i lost the whimsy, gang... 🥀 i lost the whimsy. 🥀

but man here we are, finding a place where i feel safe so i can at least vent out stuff. i actually can't do it anymore, i need a break and i need help.

i could've said shit to my own relatives but all i got was "your state is not as worst as mine" and i really hope they understand why i don't talk to my own family that much anymore, why i HATE going out with them.

i just tell myself "man you gotta step up because you're actually alone on this one, people from outside will NOT help you at all neither is your own relatives" it's so harsh, but it's the actual thing.

i actually want to drop out atp, my mental status is already reaching past rock bottom. i really need help, i reaaaallly do... i can't do well in our class, i can't participate in our school work properly without feeling shit. i feel really tired but i can't voice it out

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