it be those people who make it easier to exist tbh

if i could have a genuine and safe relationship where i dont have second guesses about it, that would be fantastic.

i shouldve just accepted my friends polycule offer or whatever. i shouldve went to the bar or club with them. i shouldnt ah e pushed my friends away over people who seemingly want to put im zero effort.

its fucking him again 2.0. its the fucking promises and good times but push me the fuck away.

my bf leaves me on READ when i ask about plans. and fuck it. im gonna not ask again.

“save money, i’ll visit when i have money” brother you have no fucking job and you arent motivated to make money.

i dont know why i spent money on something that’s gonna yield the same results in emptyness.

also if you see me online on discord, I am not. i’ll probably only be online to hang out with friends on splatoon or the mooscles group, least they dont make me feel like that.

im probably going to take a big ass stream break tbh. im tired. i think i’m better off pushing everyone away and stick back to art. my tablet doesnt talk but it helped me get through life.

i miss drawing nsfw stuff so much.

guess its ok when other people do it

my fault for mingling my community with his. i guess …..