End ramble, thank fuck I have therapy on Saturday, I need to get more of this shit off my chest but social media is not the right place.

Long and short, anyone know a really non judgemental editor or have the time to beta read a smutty modern fantasy shifter novel?

Not sure if that's a joke at this point, I can't decide if I'm hitting the point of just throwing it out unedited and saying fuck the world.

I know why I'm like this.
I know who's words made me so fucking afraid to put my work in front of other people.

Fuck them, fuck my college professors, and fuck early 2010's cringe culture, you fucked my brain up by reinforcing on the foundation of self doubt my family built.

So instead I start a new piece, another ramble into the aether about unhealthy relationships and power fantasies, polyamory, modern fantasy or near future scifi, and they all rot in my google docs.

The worst part?

The most recent one just included the MC yelling at someone for giving up early...

I just... I want it edited, because I know my grammar is shit, and I want more beta readers because I fucking have zero confidence, but the idea of putting it in front of people?

Fucking horrifying.

1 Day later update, the culprit was probably the chunks of mozzarella fried in olive oil.

The oil was probably a bit burnt and the Mozz a bit old.
The betrayal of my trust though? Complete and devastating.

Posting this has allowed me to decide, fun night for him with his new friends, then drama the morning after due to ~reasons~.
Let the guy the other characters are affectionately calling 'Sad Boy' to his face have a bit of fun before things get even more complicated for him you know?

Maybe the folks I played with were just those bad apples then, I don't know. They were just very... Elitist I guess? Like outside of a few people they refused to accept playing any way but the most efficient.

Every community has their Redditors -_-
The problem is I'm looking for casual play/a casual community. Any hope that said community is more welcoming than back when I stopped around a few months after PoFs release?

I feel like she would demand a sweet treat?

Like, awww, you think I'm going to get you some kinda clout don't you, you silly little algorithm!

Like not even hard leather, it was more thumpy than snappy if you know what I mean.
My partner I'm going to visit is now grumpy at TSA lol.