RaiRaiTheRaichu, but in despair!
@rairai-vents.bsky.social
RaiRai's vent alt account.
It's being used to just post some thoughts that are usually more negative than I'm comfortable posting on main.
Post interaction is disabled purposely.
Do not assume the target source/reasons of any of my posts. No matter what.
It's being used to just post some thoughts that are usually more negative than I'm comfortable posting on main.
Post interaction is disabled purposely.
Do not assume the target source/reasons of any of my posts. No matter what.
not doing well this morning
not doing well at all
not doing well at all
December 20, 2025 at 12:54 PM
not doing well this morning
not doing well at all
not doing well at all
i want to just start bawling tonight
December 15, 2025 at 6:36 AM
i want to just start bawling tonight
alaska putting in all the work today.
December 3, 2025 at 1:13 PM
alaska putting in all the work today.
i don’t like letting these kinds of feelings out but i want to put more of it into words.
November 29, 2025 at 8:45 AM
i don’t like letting these kinds of feelings out but i want to put more of it into words.
feels weird to realize i don’t have a family anymore.
November 28, 2025 at 12:44 AM
feels weird to realize i don’t have a family anymore.
getting a panic attack out of nowhere and idk why
kind of really wishing i had someone here to cling to tonight.
kind of really wishing i had someone here to cling to tonight.
November 2, 2025 at 6:53 AM
getting a panic attack out of nowhere and idk why
kind of really wishing i had someone here to cling to tonight.
kind of really wishing i had someone here to cling to tonight.
i feel far too reliant on others, especially in a time where it feels like everyone has their own shit to deal with, that being concerned about me is a waste of time and energy that nobody can afford.
October 20, 2025 at 1:44 AM
i feel far too reliant on others, especially in a time where it feels like everyone has their own shit to deal with, that being concerned about me is a waste of time and energy that nobody can afford.
just woke up from some of the worst nightmares in my life, having an awful panic attack
i don’t even want to think of what the dreams were about, the sooner i can forget about them, the better. they were extremely vivid and about really sensitive things and ugh.
i feel awful…
i don’t even want to think of what the dreams were about, the sooner i can forget about them, the better. they were extremely vivid and about really sensitive things and ugh.
i feel awful…
October 13, 2025 at 4:43 PM
just woke up from some of the worst nightmares in my life, having an awful panic attack
i don’t even want to think of what the dreams were about, the sooner i can forget about them, the better. they were extremely vivid and about really sensitive things and ugh.
i feel awful…
i don’t even want to think of what the dreams were about, the sooner i can forget about them, the better. they were extremely vivid and about really sensitive things and ugh.
i feel awful…
second night in a row spent crying in bed
wheeeeeeeee
wheeeeeeeee
October 9, 2025 at 4:37 AM
second night in a row spent crying in bed
wheeeeeeeee
wheeeeeeeee
really feeling not-good tonight, kinda depressed
i’m not even sure why tbh. i think the pressure of everything is just getting to me. i’ve been doing an awful job at keeping up with friends, and it’s eating away at me.
i feel like my friends are moving on bc i’m struggling to keep in touch…
i’m not even sure why tbh. i think the pressure of everything is just getting to me. i’ve been doing an awful job at keeping up with friends, and it’s eating away at me.
i feel like my friends are moving on bc i’m struggling to keep in touch…
October 7, 2025 at 4:21 AM
really feeling not-good tonight, kinda depressed
i’m not even sure why tbh. i think the pressure of everything is just getting to me. i’ve been doing an awful job at keeping up with friends, and it’s eating away at me.
i feel like my friends are moving on bc i’m struggling to keep in touch…
i’m not even sure why tbh. i think the pressure of everything is just getting to me. i’ve been doing an awful job at keeping up with friends, and it’s eating away at me.
i feel like my friends are moving on bc i’m struggling to keep in touch…
and ending in a sleep call together
fuck, i love them so much.
fuck, i love them so much.
September 30, 2025 at 7:52 PM
and ending in a sleep call together
fuck, i love them so much.
fuck, i love them so much.
“yeah youll have your meds first thing in the morning when the pharmacy opens”
me 12 hours later, still without them:
me 12 hours later, still without them:
im so sick of doctors
September 24, 2025 at 9:54 PM
“yeah youll have your meds first thing in the morning when the pharmacy opens”
me 12 hours later, still without them:
me 12 hours later, still without them:
i was really hoping i’d feel better today finally but im just as bad.
if im being honest about it, i’d have to say im extremely critical, mentally. it’s getting to the point where i want to burn bridges and isolate, because im so frustrated with everything and everyone.
if im being honest about it, i’d have to say im extremely critical, mentally. it’s getting to the point where i want to burn bridges and isolate, because im so frustrated with everything and everyone.
September 24, 2025 at 6:49 PM
i was really hoping i’d feel better today finally but im just as bad.
if im being honest about it, i’d have to say im extremely critical, mentally. it’s getting to the point where i want to burn bridges and isolate, because im so frustrated with everything and everyone.
if im being honest about it, i’d have to say im extremely critical, mentally. it’s getting to the point where i want to burn bridges and isolate, because im so frustrated with everything and everyone.
yeah this is definitely the worst night in a Long time
September 24, 2025 at 1:20 AM
yeah this is definitely the worst night in a Long time
yeah that’s the exact kind of shit that makes me want to give up
September 24, 2025 at 1:05 AM
yeah that’s the exact kind of shit that makes me want to give up
awful time to get a sudden panic attack
it’s always at the most inconvenient times, too
i just feel so extremely uncomfortable with everything
it’s always at the most inconvenient times, too
i just feel so extremely uncomfortable with everything
September 15, 2025 at 9:19 PM
awful time to get a sudden panic attack
it’s always at the most inconvenient times, too
i just feel so extremely uncomfortable with everything
it’s always at the most inconvenient times, too
i just feel so extremely uncomfortable with everything
i get it. it’s hard to reach out. sending a cold DM and inviting to something, to plan something and set a time, or to take a risk.
but when people don’t, it shows me i’m not worth the scary ten seconds of effort.
i’m not as good as the people you Do still engage with.
i’m not good enough.
but when people don’t, it shows me i’m not worth the scary ten seconds of effort.
i’m not as good as the people you Do still engage with.
i’m not good enough.
i think my mental health would be leagues better if more people actively engaged with me and showed me they want me in their lives.
not using me for ‘thing a’ or ‘thing b’, but backed up their words with taking action because they’re willing to swallow the hard pill to include me, comfortably.
not using me for ‘thing a’ or ‘thing b’, but backed up their words with taking action because they’re willing to swallow the hard pill to include me, comfortably.
September 12, 2025 at 10:28 AM
i get it. it’s hard to reach out. sending a cold DM and inviting to something, to plan something and set a time, or to take a risk.
but when people don’t, it shows me i’m not worth the scary ten seconds of effort.
i’m not as good as the people you Do still engage with.
i’m not good enough.
but when people don’t, it shows me i’m not worth the scary ten seconds of effort.
i’m not as good as the people you Do still engage with.
i’m not good enough.
things might be getting marginally better, finally
im still struggling with feelings of inadequacy and it feels like those feelings are being reinforced often by the actions of others. a lot of “yeah, i’ll do things, just not with you.” a lot of forgetting i exist.
im still struggling with feelings of inadequacy and it feels like those feelings are being reinforced often by the actions of others. a lot of “yeah, i’ll do things, just not with you.” a lot of forgetting i exist.
September 12, 2025 at 10:21 AM
things might be getting marginally better, finally
im still struggling with feelings of inadequacy and it feels like those feelings are being reinforced often by the actions of others. a lot of “yeah, i’ll do things, just not with you.” a lot of forgetting i exist.
im still struggling with feelings of inadequacy and it feels like those feelings are being reinforced often by the actions of others. a lot of “yeah, i’ll do things, just not with you.” a lot of forgetting i exist.
i can’t help but feel like if you actually cared, you’d at least try.
September 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
i can’t help but feel like if you actually cared, you’d at least try.
miss you.
September 5, 2025 at 8:53 AM
miss you.
still really upset, regarding how many games and such i’ve gotten that i’m totally left out of.
i scroll past a post, see an icon on my desktop, stumble upon an old screenshot, and it immediately sours my mood.
it feels like we’ll be saying “yeah, we’ll play someday!” until we eventually die.
i scroll past a post, see an icon on my desktop, stumble upon an old screenshot, and it immediately sours my mood.
it feels like we’ll be saying “yeah, we’ll play someday!” until we eventually die.
September 4, 2025 at 11:32 AM
still really upset, regarding how many games and such i’ve gotten that i’m totally left out of.
i scroll past a post, see an icon on my desktop, stumble upon an old screenshot, and it immediately sours my mood.
it feels like we’ll be saying “yeah, we’ll play someday!” until we eventually die.
i scroll past a post, see an icon on my desktop, stumble upon an old screenshot, and it immediately sours my mood.
it feels like we’ll be saying “yeah, we’ll play someday!” until we eventually die.
strong shifts all night, wonder what’s up with that
September 4, 2025 at 11:29 AM
strong shifts all night, wonder what’s up with that
very negative headspace this morning
September 3, 2025 at 10:11 AM
very negative headspace this morning
i think we speedran being an interesting and desirable person to everyone
oh well
it was a good run
oh well
it was a good run
September 1, 2025 at 5:53 AM
i think we speedran being an interesting and desirable person to everyone
oh well
it was a good run
oh well
it was a good run