We all know how that goes ladies and gentlemen

I feel so bad… I can’t tell if I like him or he likes me or that everything we have right now is just platonic. I’m sure it is because I don’t think he’d want me that way but then again idk. In a strange way I really want him but I know i definitely should not. Sigh. Idk I just wish I had a bf 😔

Idk why I wanna ask him so bad though…. I mean I have a guess that he is single but I shouldn’t even be wanting to date him anyway. Hell I can’t even tell if he likes me lol im spiraling y’all help

Here's the playlists btw if anyone wants them

open.spotify.com/playlist/2fQ...

open.spotify.com/playlist/2eN...

Also I'm sorry to the person who replied to that post of mine for being also groomed as a teenager (it's very obvious cause of their wording) but don't take your backwards ass thought process onto my posts. Thank you. Also stay away from teenagers cause you are def a future groomed, weirdo.

So don't sit here and tell me. A 18 YEAR OLD TEEN. YES. STILL A TEEN. to hang around people OLDER than me because I guarantee it is not going to fix me and I need to heal from being groomed first. And I need to heal my childhood parental trauma too. First. So thanks. But no thanks.

Like, bro you do not know who I am. You do not know my history. Me hanging around people 22 and over is not going to make me more mature or learn new life experiences but instead make me want to self harm more and engage in more attention seeking behaviors because I have very bad parent issues.

ME ASF

-I wanna make sure they are a right match for me first. That's why I prefer to date my friends like this is so fucking annoying like what

Like is this what being freshly 18 is like? I only turned 18 about 3-4 months ago, and now suddenly everyone wants to date me. Uhhhh, get to know me first?? Why does being a fresh adult have to be so hard :( I just want friends. Like I do want a partner but not super quick-

This is so ridiculous. All I wanted was a friend to play fortnite with again often 😕 and I can't even have that. Like bruh okay ghost me. Whatever. I ain't your sex toy. Leave me tf alone I'm tired of being groomed dude

And even if I WAS interested in you, understand the concept of DID because while my husband is definitely real. He isn't physical and is just part of my system, I'm still "technically" single. Oh. And I'm polyamorous too so 💀

-with heavy dissociative barriers may I add