I just really wish someone told me they loved me without me thinking it means they love me romantically, genuinely what is wrong with me, am I just badly unloved or what 😂😂😂 God I just wish I could have a partner again so I can stfu on the tl

Like deep down inside, I know I really don't need a romantic lover. But I hate that I yearn it so badly and i KNOW it's gotta be because of my bpd and hpd, I know that has to be the reason because I'm mostly fine having friends but I get these moments where I just REALLY want to be in a relationship

Idk why I reject platonic love so much... I guess I just miss having someone tell me they love me... I guess, I don't wanna feel like this anymore man. I really just want someone to genuinely be a friend to me again like how it used to be before my ex best friend left me... This sucks man

I wish I had a boyfriend or girlfriend :( I swear this isn't my horniness talking man I just want to be LOVED 😭💔‼️ I lowkey feel so unloved like nobody loves me but I guess its just my brain playing tricks on me again idk, that or I really need to forget about those feelings for my best friend... Ew

Going through that delimma again where I'm questioning if I am in love with my best friend, this is so dumb like we are just friends stfu brain PLEASE 😭💀 I want a boyfriend soooo bad but I dont need one that bad like come on brain lock in

I kinda really wish I knew if he had a girlfriend or if he’s gay or bisexual or anything. I kinda get bisexual vibes from him but idk? And idk if he has somebody but i guess it isn’t worth it to loathe on… I really shouldn’t be trying to scope out for a guy older than me anyway.

Hey gang 😁 im still about as manic as ever and I kinda got depressed tonight because even tho my best friend said I can ask him anything, I was gonna pull a weird one and ask him if he had a girlfriend or anything but I didn’t wanna seem creepy so I never did so be proud of me today!!

Call me patrick bateman the way I'm listening to hip to be square (I'm about to lose my mind)

How the fuck do you get over your emotional attachment when you know damn well they aren't good for you

Had such a bad bpd episode tonight I literally created two whole playlists to cope with my pain just in case if valentines day might make me lose my absolute mind!

I don't wanna come off across as petty here but replying to a post about complaining of people not fitting in your age range of who you are comfortable being around because of the after affects of grooming saying the most "ive been groomed as a teen" thing ever is really disgusting.

A gif from my comfort show:

(I'm insane)

I do not understand nor comprehend why the fuck would you text me after like 5-6 years wanting to rebond then ghost me when I mention having a (mind you) in system husband. Did you want to just get in my pants or do you actually wanna be a friend?? I just don't understand

I think my best friend intentionally removed me on snapchat... Idk why tho. It was after I posted a palestine link on my snap story and idk if that the reason or maybe I'm doing something wrong... I'm so scared and sad.. I thought they loved me.. Idk if it was a accident or not but I'm scaref

I don't understand why someone two years older than me would tell me how to heal from grooming. Being around someone 7 years older than me isn't gonna make me mature or make me experience life better. I have bpd it's gonna make it worse cause I have mommy and daddy issues lol please that's so rude

Sometimes I wish you’d come back to me.
Maybe for a kiss?
Maybe for something else.
I miss you and all the laughs we had.
Please come back.
I miss you with the words of my dispair. I wish with the thoughts I said out loud, I could repair </3