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Royal | they/them
over 25y/o, still freaking out about it
multifandom nerd from multishipper hell
buried in all the plot bunnies
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over 25y/o, still freaking out about it
multifandom nerd from multishipper hell
buried in all the plot bunnies
sorry not sorry for spam likes
🛑 No Minors | No AI 🛑
https://heckin-mess.straw.page/
me with this fic tho-
two cats and a raccoon are standing around a bowl of food with the words i want this below them
ALT: two cats and a raccoon are standing around a bowl of food with the words i want this below them
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November 13, 2025 at 6:02 AM
me with this fic tho-
i am so intrigued you have no idea
November 13, 2025 at 12:43 AM
i am so intrigued you have no idea
Mutant AU; Part 3
#ghoap - Post MWIII - length: 28
CWs - continued themes of death & dying
mentioned real-world historic event (battle)
semi-graphic battle scene; teenage death
survivors guilt
another glimpse at Soap's past :)
#ghoap - Post MWIII - length: 28
CWs - continued themes of death & dying
mentioned real-world historic event (battle)
semi-graphic battle scene; teenage death
survivors guilt
another glimpse at Soap's past :)
Mutant AU; Part 2
#ghoap - post MWIII - length: 33
CWs same as last +
Semi-graphic discussion of canon MCD
Referenced/Implied past sh/sui.
Referenced/Implied past child death
Soap's accent is less heavy here, but still present
he shrugs a lot in this one
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#ghoap - post MWIII - length: 33
CWs same as last +
Semi-graphic discussion of canon MCD
Referenced/Implied past sh/sui.
Referenced/Implied past child death
Soap's accent is less heavy here, but still present
he shrugs a lot in this one
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
November 12, 2025 at 7:49 PM
that faceee awwwwh
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November 12, 2025 at 7:44 PM
that faceee awwwwh
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ADHD Soap angst is just /so damn good/.
too fuckin relatable, hurts in the best worst way, I love it
somebody get that boy a hug and a fidget toy <3
too fuckin relatable, hurts in the best worst way, I love it
somebody get that boy a hug and a fidget toy <3
November 12, 2025 at 2:27 PM
ADHD Soap angst is just /so damn good/.
too fuckin relatable, hurts in the best worst way, I love it
somebody get that boy a hug and a fidget toy <3
too fuckin relatable, hurts in the best worst way, I love it
somebody get that boy a hug and a fidget toy <3
WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT
a man taking a shower with the words sobbing uncontrollably written below him
ALT: a man taking a shower with the words sobbing uncontrollably written below him
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November 12, 2025 at 2:07 PM
WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT
these idiots are too precious <3
November 12, 2025 at 2:03 PM
these idiots are too precious <3
and yes, they want him around; yes, he's a damn good soldier
tl;dr - 'shut up soap' where someone else gets hurt, allegedly bc of him; and soap carries that shit for /months/ after it's all supposedly settled, without anyone being any wiser
#johnsoapmactavish #mw2
tl;dr - 'shut up soap' where someone else gets hurt, allegedly bc of him; and soap carries that shit for /months/ after it's all supposedly settled, without anyone being any wiser
#johnsoapmactavish #mw2
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
and yes, they want him around; yes, he's a damn good soldier
tl;dr - 'shut up soap' where someone else gets hurt, allegedly bc of him; and soap carries that shit for /months/ after it's all supposedly settled, without anyone being any wiser
#johnsoapmactavish #mw2
tl;dr - 'shut up soap' where someone else gets hurt, allegedly bc of him; and soap carries that shit for /months/ after it's all supposedly settled, without anyone being any wiser
#johnsoapmactavish #mw2
everyone else has a collective oh shit moment because nobody realised that Johnny was still blaming himself for that.
that's why he's seemed /off/.
something something proof through actions, lots of love for the boy - it takes a while but he eventually believes that what they're saying is true +
that's why he's seemed /off/.
something something proof through actions, lots of love for the boy - it takes a while but he eventually believes that what they're saying is true +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
everyone else has a collective oh shit moment because nobody realised that Johnny was still blaming himself for that.
that's why he's seemed /off/.
something something proof through actions, lots of love for the boy - it takes a while but he eventually believes that what they're saying is true +
that's why he's seemed /off/.
something something proof through actions, lots of love for the boy - it takes a while but he eventually believes that what they're saying is true +
until Soap lets slip some comment regarding his big fuckup months before and everyone's like
wait a minute, pause.
tf you talking about?
and Soap's just confused, like - when character got hurt bc of me, how could you forget about that? +
wait a minute, pause.
tf you talking about?
and Soap's just confused, like - when character got hurt bc of me, how could you forget about that? +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
until Soap lets slip some comment regarding his big fuckup months before and everyone's like
wait a minute, pause.
tf you talking about?
and Soap's just confused, like - when character got hurt bc of me, how could you forget about that? +
wait a minute, pause.
tf you talking about?
and Soap's just confused, like - when character got hurt bc of me, how could you forget about that? +
but they're all honestly just fucking concerned about him because sure, Soap can be a bit spacey, but never when it /matters/, so clearly something's wrong
cue conversation that's one of those 'they're talking about different things and assuming everyone's on the same page' kind of talks +
cue conversation that's one of those 'they're talking about different things and assuming everyone's on the same page' kind of talks +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
but they're all honestly just fucking concerned about him because sure, Soap can be a bit spacey, but never when it /matters/, so clearly something's wrong
cue conversation that's one of those 'they're talking about different things and assuming everyone's on the same page' kind of talks +
cue conversation that's one of those 'they're talking about different things and assuming everyone's on the same page' kind of talks +
until some months later, something minor happens - something that, had he been at his best, Soap probably could've prevented (maybe he's ambushed, misses a tripwire, accidentally alerts the enemy)
and when it's all over he's like ah shit. here's the excuse they've been waiting for +
and when it's all over he's like ah shit. here's the excuse they've been waiting for +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
until some months later, something minor happens - something that, had he been at his best, Soap probably could've prevented (maybe he's ambushed, misses a tripwire, accidentally alerts the enemy)
and when it's all over he's like ah shit. here's the excuse they've been waiting for +
and when it's all over he's like ah shit. here's the excuse they've been waiting for +
so apologies and reassurances happen, and Soap just plays along, thinks they're just pitying him for now, meanwhile he's waiting for the other shoe to drop.
and maybe he seems a bit off, but he hides it well so nobody really questions it all that much +
and maybe he seems a bit off, but he hides it well so nobody really questions it all that much +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
so apologies and reassurances happen, and Soap just plays along, thinks they're just pitying him for now, meanwhile he's waiting for the other shoe to drop.
and maybe he seems a bit off, but he hides it well so nobody really questions it all that much +
and maybe he seems a bit off, but he hides it well so nobody really questions it all that much +
but by then it's too late, because Soap is already deep in the spiral of self loathing and recrimination.
n I don't know about anyone else, but the deeper I am in a spiral, the less likely I'll be to take someone's word for it when they say something's not my fault +
n I don't know about anyone else, but the deeper I am in a spiral, the less likely I'll be to take someone's word for it when they say something's not my fault +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
but by then it's too late, because Soap is already deep in the spiral of self loathing and recrimination.
n I don't know about anyone else, but the deeper I am in a spiral, the less likely I'll be to take someone's word for it when they say something's not my fault +
n I don't know about anyone else, but the deeper I am in a spiral, the less likely I'll be to take someone's word for it when they say something's not my fault +
but the others (who aren't hurt) blame him as well. Soap was negligent/distracted/whatever
(only to find out, once hurt character eventually wakes, that Soap had nothing to do with them getting hurt - it wasn't something he caused or could have prevented) +
(only to find out, once hurt character eventually wakes, that Soap had nothing to do with them getting hurt - it wasn't something he caused or could have prevented) +
November 12, 2025 at 2:00 PM
but the others (who aren't hurt) blame him as well. Soap was negligent/distracted/whatever
(only to find out, once hurt character eventually wakes, that Soap had nothing to do with them getting hurt - it wasn't something he caused or could have prevented) +
(only to find out, once hurt character eventually wakes, that Soap had nothing to do with them getting hurt - it wasn't something he caused or could have prevented) +
you're so right *taking notes*
November 12, 2025 at 1:28 PM
you're so right *taking notes*
Sleepy soap feelin schmoopy <3
Ik soap being tired probably feels like it happened all of a sudden. That's cause it did. Sometimes fatigue just flies outta nowhere and hits you like a brick.
Poor baby needs some rest.
Ik soap being tired probably feels like it happened all of a sudden. That's cause it did. Sometimes fatigue just flies outta nowhere and hits you like a brick.
Poor baby needs some rest.
November 11, 2025 at 10:33 PM
Sleepy soap feelin schmoopy <3
Ik soap being tired probably feels like it happened all of a sudden. That's cause it did. Sometimes fatigue just flies outta nowhere and hits you like a brick.
Poor baby needs some rest.
Ik soap being tired probably feels like it happened all of a sudden. That's cause it did. Sometimes fatigue just flies outta nowhere and hits you like a brick.
Poor baby needs some rest.