Okay okay but in all seriousness:

This whole thread is the result of sharing something super vulnerable with my family and asking for help.

Now I’m overcompensating with self-deprecating humor because being seen (and being honest with myself and others) is scary af.

Happy spiralling everyone!

I just feel like I owe it to my 31 followers to be totally transparent and honest.

Anyway!

Signing off now so I can go wash dishes in quiet resentment instead of just asking for help!! Lmao!

xoxo, purple vanilla world

I love the attention of being called resilient for taking on too much, burning out, and then laying in bed for a week feeling sorry for myself for being disabled.

I know this stage: the costumes changes, the light cues, the script.

Lights, camera, action bayyyybeeee 🎬

If I actually followed my therapist’s advice, how would I get to perform emotional intelligence and wear my cape of victimhood at the same time?

Who would I even be without the trauamitized inner monologue and a vague sense of superiority? 🫶

Everything changed in 2016 in my opinion, but 2020 traumatized the world for sure. That's where the massive imbalance of spreading more hate than hope really sunk it's teeth into our societies. You're absolutely right. Nothing has been the same since.