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protopon.bsky.social
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@protopon.bsky.social
ffxiv obsessed music loving Xenoblade fan.

Isaac In-itio//Primal:Lamia

I'm like if a depressed guy hated himself
I need today to be over. I have a vacation next week and want to get a lot of personal stuff done (deep clean house, set up stream/discord stuff). Only downside is going to Nashville with band tomorrow and thats going to be interesting to say the least.
November 28, 2025 at 3:08 PM
I've had all my socials disabled aside from this and snap, and it's pretty cool that basically no one has brought it up. Really makes me want to reactivate them and definitely doesn't feed into my dissociative feelings of just packing up and moving to the other side of the country
November 26, 2025 at 9:38 PM
What if I just.... don't reactivate my Twitter this time? Wouldn't that be cool?
November 25, 2025 at 3:05 PM
Imma be real with you. This past week is the first time in months ive been so depressed I've wanted to completely lose myself in disassociation and just fucking disappear halfway across the country as someone else again. Im so tired of this shit
October 19, 2025 at 1:53 PM
Gonna try to start cooking again. I miss it.
August 12, 2025 at 8:15 PM
Local depressive mellows out after beginning to take his meds again, questions why he doesn't just continually take them like a good boy
August 12, 2025 at 11:18 AM
Im taking the time to come up with a new display name. I hate having to change it again, because Protopon stuck for me, but ultimately as long as I know im searchable, my paranoia that my ex and her fiance are stalking me will persist. @p.r.o.t.0.p.one.xe on twitter is now effectively a dead account
August 11, 2025 at 2:11 PM
Ultimately, its like my favorite quote ever says:

"If it helps put smiles on people's faces, helps them live their lives together... then that's my role in this world."

I just want to see people be happy. I know how it feels to be trapped in a ceaseless void, thinking nothing will ever brighten
August 11, 2025 at 2:06 PM
Dealing in the wake of a narcissist is hard. Going zero communication, I feel like it's punishing for me. Like I cant talk about the stuff that hurts because I know that's feeding them the energy they want out of me. But then it just results in bottling it up and I start suffering in silence.
August 10, 2025 at 8:36 PM
Ive had my instagram deactivated for the past 5 months, and you can tell that the Reels algorithm hasn't quite gotten the news yet. Its like 80% "i love my girlfriend she is awesome" and 20% LotR (this part can stay actually.)
August 9, 2025 at 6:21 PM
Would you still love me if I disassociated and deactivated all my socials?
August 7, 2025 at 12:24 AM
I won't lie, I've mostly moved past what happened and have especially moved past the person, but it's really difficult to look at the situation every now and again because all I can do is ask myself why I wasn't good enough. being cheated on fucking sucks because even if you manage to 180 your self
July 12, 2025 at 4:54 AM
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May 9, 2025 at 9:46 AM
I want to play Xenogears but I don't want to stream. These low spoon days have got to stop
May 4, 2025 at 4:16 PM
Watched a decent Shirou Emiya video essay earlier, and it put a lot of explanation into why I feel like i do 90% of the time. Survivor's guilt fucking sucks. Never realized how much of *me* is defined by it.
May 4, 2025 at 1:29 AM
Deactivated all of my socials last night other than bsky, and may even do this one, idk. I'm one bad day away from just disassociating and starting a new life at this point. If I had the money, it'd already have happened.
April 30, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Facebook sucks because it keeps telling me via recommended posts how it thinks I should feel post-breakup. Like the bitter red-pill women only want assholes type shit and it's just like... nah. It fucking sucks, but I ain't about that shit, and I never will be; please stop this.
April 27, 2025 at 12:36 PM
I miss the intimacy. I just want to cuddle up and watch a cute movie with someone again.
April 27, 2025 at 3:03 AM
Listened to an old voicemail and it hurt really bad. It's easy to say I've moved on now, but as soon as I heard her say "babe" and "baby," it immediately rent my heart in two.
April 25, 2025 at 7:52 PM
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November 1, 2024 at 6:48 PM
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If you want to understand the appeal of Retsarra/Eutrope, there’s actually a watch order. First you need to play all of ffxiv including Dawntrail. Before starting the Arcadion go on Netflix and watch Breaking Bad. When done I’d recommend El Camino but, and this is crucial, watch Better Call Saul
April 16, 2025 at 5:01 PM
I need to get these therapy sessions going ASAP. I feel like I'm one bad day from my head Splitting in 3 different ways, and I mean that about as literally as I can be saying that. It feels like my brain is pulling apart because of everything lately, and I need to talk this shit out responsibly
April 13, 2025 at 6:18 PM
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homesickness: experiencing a longing for one's home during a period of absence from it.

my drawing for @meliazine.bsky.social 💖✨ thanks for having me !
April 10, 2025 at 11:33 PM
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Pathfinder Officer, Astra Cross~🤠
I just wanna draw her in her little coat~

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March 13, 2025 at 8:29 PM
This account will be entirely divorced from my recent startup. I want to have *A* place where I can go to chronicle the growth I've resolved to undergo. I believe social media is a cancer, and it has transformed me into a man i want nothing to do with. I'll allow it to happen no further.
April 10, 2025 at 4:31 PM