I dont feel like I can feel. If I do I'll be giving her exactly what she wanted all along. I want to feel the anger i know I should feel, but I cant. I want to feel the sadness I know i should feel but I cant. I want to resent, I want to hate, but I physically cannot, and it's poisoning my mental

This year has been cataclysmic for me, but I dont feel like I can show that im breaking. Working with someone who actively wanted to ruin my life, who weaponized my insecurities against me, and shattered the ungodly amount of trust I placed in her is draining me past my limit.

Ive been seeing her for like 6 months now? And December is the 2nd time she's canceled. I feel like a burden 24/7, as if all who associate with me does it at a detriment to themself, but I just want someone to show me that I'm not. That all this shit is just in my head, but I cant even find that

The ups aren't performative, but the lack of downs are. I know people are seeing through the act, but no one cares enough to just show me they're there. That they WANT to be there. I take too much energy to be around, and people slide away as a result. Even my therapist must see me as too much.

I was like top 9% for call time or something like that, and my "number 1" was my ex's (who I blocked) friend that we would co-stream with lmao

"You got games on your phone?"- lookin ass

I prefer to think this is her tail

Something like this would fix me, I fear

The more prominently black face reminds me more of Anubis than it already looked. Pretty big fan of it personally

It gets harder and harder to push intrusive thoughts out because people have shown time and again that they're warranted, especially earlier this year, but then not even a single person in my irl circle seems concerned by me drowning in it all and I feel like im on the edge of breaking in a big way

I genuinely think the only time ive felt lower than this was friend's suicide and then because I accused [redacted] of cheating when she was literally waving the new guy in my face any chance she got while I was desperately fighting to get her to not

I'm not delusional, I know people have their own stuff, but it would be nice to see even one person concerned for my health or something idk. Like im at an all time low thanks to someone fuckiny demolishing my trust and weaponizing my insecurities against me and I feel like im gonna fuckiny collapse

This the kind of ad id expect on a Jabroni Mike stream