My brother invited us to their new house since he got married this month and it was really nice, her wife is almost like a professional chef so sufficed to say the food was amazing, I'm really happy for him to see his in a new stage of his life, it also gave me hope for the future

This past few days I've been feeling better overall, not exactly good but at least less depressed, so that is a big W for me

I'm feeling a bit better today, a few members of our family are coming to drink coffee in the afternoon, we will have our little Christmas party at the end ⭐

Now that we had dinner it is starting to hit me how awful it is to spend Christmas with just my mom, I adore here and spending time with her but it's not the same, I miss the entire family being here.

Today I feel weird, it's the first time we are not celebrating Christmas as a family, which is weird since I tend to just stay in my room while my family is at our house since it is the default place to celebrate, yet I miss the feeling of festivities, I'm not exactly sad but not happy either.

Today was pretty uneventful, I just played games all day and that is pretty much it, started making the prep work for tomorrow's dinner, I'll be making Korean bbq, it is my first time making it but I have high hopes.

Today I woke up feeling a bit better, just had breakfast with coffee and scrambled eggs, the weather is grey and raining, just how I like it haha.
At the moment me and my mom are planning on what to do for tomorrow since it will be the first Christmas that we don't have a family reunion.

I feel a bit better now, took a shower and made dinner, the situation is still dire since I'm still jobless but at least I'm not on the verge of a mental breakdown, I still have a bit of hope that things will indeed get better, I also talked with a friend about how I feel.

Today I feel like shit, I've been studying sound engineering for a year and a half and I'm really liking it, but a few weeks back we learned the university is eliminating the program and we only have 8 months to finish it, suffice to say it destroyed my motivation.

I decided to start posting because I need a diary to keep track of my mental health and to just vent out, I'll also take the opportunity to keep practicing my English since it is not my native language.