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feel sick to my stomach over something that doesn't even really matter...
May 11, 2025 at 8:44 AM
feel sick to my stomach over something that doesn't even really matter...
I wish I could let go of others the way they let go of me.
May 11, 2025 at 8:41 AM
I wish I could let go of others the way they let go of me.
surely it means nothing that I woke up from a dream where my family was normal, spent the next hour feeling vaguely bad, and am now mentally going "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" over seemingly nothing
May 3, 2025 at 5:13 PM
surely it means nothing that I woke up from a dream where my family was normal, spent the next hour feeling vaguely bad, and am now mentally going "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" over seemingly nothing
talked to the roommate's parents and they're always so sweet
I always worry about the small chance of getting kicked out if their daughter gets angry enough, but they immediately got frustrated on my behalf. they're definitely not kicking me or anything out over what happened last night
I always worry about the small chance of getting kicked out if their daughter gets angry enough, but they immediately got frustrated on my behalf. they're definitely not kicking me or anything out over what happened last night
April 29, 2025 at 5:45 PM
talked to the roommate's parents and they're always so sweet
I always worry about the small chance of getting kicked out if their daughter gets angry enough, but they immediately got frustrated on my behalf. they're definitely not kicking me or anything out over what happened last night
I always worry about the small chance of getting kicked out if their daughter gets angry enough, but they immediately got frustrated on my behalf. they're definitely not kicking me or anything out over what happened last night
wish that my roommate would just try to talk out any issues she has with me instead of making me have to worry about my living situation at every minor inconvenience
April 29, 2025 at 6:56 AM
wish that my roommate would just try to talk out any issues she has with me instead of making me have to worry about my living situation at every minor inconvenience
love that my roommate can take multiple hours in our only bathroom without warning whenever she wants
but the second i need a 3 minute shower i'm told it's a "shitty move" because i'm supposed to somehow know she needs to get ready for bed right at that second
i'm so fucking tired of her bullshit
but the second i need a 3 minute shower i'm told it's a "shitty move" because i'm supposed to somehow know she needs to get ready for bed right at that second
i'm so fucking tired of her bullshit
April 29, 2025 at 4:24 AM
love that my roommate can take multiple hours in our only bathroom without warning whenever she wants
but the second i need a 3 minute shower i'm told it's a "shitty move" because i'm supposed to somehow know she needs to get ready for bed right at that second
i'm so fucking tired of her bullshit
but the second i need a 3 minute shower i'm told it's a "shitty move" because i'm supposed to somehow know she needs to get ready for bed right at that second
i'm so fucking tired of her bullshit
doing better again.
i just get too fixated on past regrets sometimes
i just get too fixated on past regrets sometimes
April 16, 2025 at 9:55 PM
doing better again.
i just get too fixated on past regrets sometimes
i just get too fixated on past regrets sometimes
I feel like I'll always be a broken child, at least some extent
April 16, 2025 at 7:22 PM
I feel like I'll always be a broken child, at least some extent
wish I knew how to let go of things
April 16, 2025 at 6:23 PM
wish I knew how to let go of things
it's too early for my thoughts to be so rancid
April 16, 2025 at 6:18 PM
it's too early for my thoughts to be so rancid
well. with my brain like this tonight I might as well go to bed
April 16, 2025 at 7:47 AM
well. with my brain like this tonight I might as well go to bed
even though things have been better than ever, that doesn't stopdepression from kicking in once in a while
April 16, 2025 at 7:31 AM
even though things have been better than ever, that doesn't stopdepression from kicking in once in a while
i wonder how I even feel about a space I'm in now
April 8, 2025 at 8:56 PM
i wonder how I even feel about a space I'm in now
in spite of everything, I've actually been doing the best I have in years lately.
this will run its course as it always does and things can get back to feeling okay..
this will run its course as it always does and things can get back to feeling okay..
March 16, 2025 at 3:08 AM
in spite of everything, I've actually been doing the best I have in years lately.
this will run its course as it always does and things can get back to feeling okay..
this will run its course as it always does and things can get back to feeling okay..
feeling overwhelmed, out of place, left behind, incapable, lifeless. the list goes on...
don't even know why I'm feeling like this tonight. but I am.
don't even know why I'm feeling like this tonight. but I am.
March 16, 2025 at 2:44 AM
feeling overwhelmed, out of place, left behind, incapable, lifeless. the list goes on...
don't even know why I'm feeling like this tonight. but I am.
don't even know why I'm feeling like this tonight. but I am.
got out of bed for 10 minutes since I was feeling a bit better and now I'm already back under the blankets with my head swirling
March 2, 2025 at 10:29 PM
got out of bed for 10 minutes since I was feeling a bit better and now I'm already back under the blankets with my head swirling
every sound feels bad today. makes me feel sick and scared.
March 2, 2025 at 6:46 PM
every sound feels bad today. makes me feel sick and scared.
why does my dumbass brain gotta be so dramatic.
bitch, you've been having fun! you can keep doing that! you're allowed!
bitch, you've been having fun! you can keep doing that! you're allowed!
February 21, 2025 at 4:04 PM
why does my dumbass brain gotta be so dramatic.
bitch, you've been having fun! you can keep doing that! you're allowed!
bitch, you've been having fun! you can keep doing that! you're allowed!
thinking that trying to back up my sleep schedule for this tournament is a big part of why I keep feeling awful now
February 19, 2025 at 11:53 AM
thinking that trying to back up my sleep schedule for this tournament is a big part of why I keep feeling awful now
6am is way too early for these emotions....
February 19, 2025 at 11:05 AM
6am is way too early for these emotions....
almost feel like less of a person when I'm doing "well"
like I'm having fun, but I still just feel like a husk a lot of the time
like I'm having fun, but I still just feel like a husk a lot of the time
February 18, 2025 at 7:19 PM
almost feel like less of a person when I'm doing "well"
like I'm having fun, but I still just feel like a husk a lot of the time
like I'm having fun, but I still just feel like a husk a lot of the time
ended up writing them a little thank you letter to let them know how appreciated they are.
I'm really thankful for the roommates' parents. I really view them like they're my own...
February 11, 2025 at 3:01 AM
ended up writing them a little thank you letter to let them know how appreciated they are.
spent the last hour imagining an argument with my abuser and reliving trauma yaaaay
February 10, 2025 at 11:20 PM
spent the last hour imagining an argument with my abuser and reliving trauma yaaaay
another night of feeling like I need to apologize any time I open my mouth, for any action, any thought, any breath
like I need to apologize for not being who others want. for being me. for the crime of merely existing.
like I need to apologize for not being who others want. for being me. for the crime of merely existing.
February 10, 2025 at 7:08 AM
another night of feeling like I need to apologize any time I open my mouth, for any action, any thought, any breath
like I need to apologize for not being who others want. for being me. for the crime of merely existing.
like I need to apologize for not being who others want. for being me. for the crime of merely existing.
nix: alex has really been shining lately, becoming more of a social butterfly than ever before.
it has its downsides - our social battery's very limited, and thinking clearly has become more difficult - but overall I'm so glad for them. for us?
it has its downsides - our social battery's very limited, and thinking clearly has become more difficult - but overall I'm so glad for them. for us?
February 9, 2025 at 9:13 AM
nix: alex has really been shining lately, becoming more of a social butterfly than ever before.
it has its downsides - our social battery's very limited, and thinking clearly has become more difficult - but overall I'm so glad for them. for us?
it has its downsides - our social battery's very limited, and thinking clearly has become more difficult - but overall I'm so glad for them. for us?