like ive considered breaking no contact to feel something & that is wild to me. something else must be going on

like all these people have to do is super small things that help Everyone in the household. yet im expected to do most of the small things. ill let the dogs out in like an hour if those jerks dont let them out themselves. bc unlike them, i listen to other creatures & i care abt them.

honestly id rather live somewhere else if im going to be paying rent in a place I CANT SLEEP IN

i am literally in pain & theyre more focused on siphoning money from me KNOWING im spending it on my DISABILITIES THEY helped CAUSE

having my “friend” try to contact his ex bc he threatened to put her (his ex) in debt… just for my “friend” to sell him content Knowing im still being abused by him… that makes me fking sick.

do i even like them or do i just want them? idek if its gender envy either. like idk whats going on im just a vessel ok

i didnt realize i liked them until i noticed i get jealous when two specific people get loads of attention. like gosh dang it not again!!!

literally anything that interests in me feels like im pulling teeth.