JustAPigeon
@pigeonxphoenix.bsky.social
Writer. CSA Survivor. Neurodevelopment Therapist. Bean Counter. Proud BTS Fan (ARMY) Sharing the journey as I work towards the elusive state of being healed.
And are always very kind, so I hope you're all well. For those who care, I will be back soon!
July 18, 2025 at 8:30 AM
And are always very kind, so I hope you're all well. For those who care, I will be back soon!
My childhood trauma meant I learnt to keep quiet and just accept. Now, as an adult, it disturbs how I talk about important things like money.
While we'd all like to not have those conversations, at the end of the day, we can't pay bills with love and fresh air no matter how much we want to.
While we'd all like to not have those conversations, at the end of the day, we can't pay bills with love and fresh air no matter how much we want to.
June 13, 2025 at 8:13 AM
My childhood trauma meant I learnt to keep quiet and just accept. Now, as an adult, it disturbs how I talk about important things like money.
While we'd all like to not have those conversations, at the end of the day, we can't pay bills with love and fresh air no matter how much we want to.
While we'd all like to not have those conversations, at the end of the day, we can't pay bills with love and fresh air no matter how much we want to.
This default doesn't just apply to money. It shows up whenever I have to ask for anything at all. It's a different version of asking someone to treat you the way you feel more comfortable with.
June 13, 2025 at 8:13 AM
This default doesn't just apply to money. It shows up whenever I have to ask for anything at all. It's a different version of asking someone to treat you the way you feel more comfortable with.
Today, I had to, and I'm sitting here a sweaty mess, slightly freaked out. I know it's tied to worth. Believing that I am allowed, entitled to ask for that sum when my default is to accept whatever scraps I am given.
June 13, 2025 at 8:13 AM
Today, I had to, and I'm sitting here a sweaty mess, slightly freaked out. I know it's tied to worth. Believing that I am allowed, entitled to ask for that sum when my default is to accept whatever scraps I am given.
The little girl scoots over, letting herself lean a little on the adult.
The movement awkward, as she’s never done it before.
“Yeah,” she whispers.
“It does.”
The movement awkward, as she’s never done it before.
“Yeah,” she whispers.
“It does.”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
The little girl scoots over, letting herself lean a little on the adult.
The movement awkward, as she’s never done it before.
“Yeah,” she whispers.
“It does.”
The movement awkward, as she’s never done it before.
“Yeah,” she whispers.
“It does.”
The little girl giggles.
A strange sound. Silvery, breathless,
almost as if her voice box can’t remember how it feels to giggle.
“You’re silly,” she says.
The adult winks.
“Feels good, doesn’t it?”
A strange sound. Silvery, breathless,
almost as if her voice box can’t remember how it feels to giggle.
“You’re silly,” she says.
The adult winks.
“Feels good, doesn’t it?”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
The little girl giggles.
A strange sound. Silvery, breathless,
almost as if her voice box can’t remember how it feels to giggle.
“You’re silly,” she says.
The adult winks.
“Feels good, doesn’t it?”
A strange sound. Silvery, breathless,
almost as if her voice box can’t remember how it feels to giggle.
“You’re silly,” she says.
The adult winks.
“Feels good, doesn’t it?”
The adult looks at her and says softly,
“We remember that we have to ignore him so he will shut up.”
“We remember that we have to ignore him so he will shut up.”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
The adult looks at her and says softly,
“We remember that we have to ignore him so he will shut up.”
“We remember that we have to ignore him so he will shut up.”
As the little girl takes her first tentative lick of that sweet treat she can’t remember ever having,
she finally turns to the adult.
“What do we do when he stops sulking?”
she finally turns to the adult.
“What do we do when he stops sulking?”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
As the little girl takes her first tentative lick of that sweet treat she can’t remember ever having,
she finally turns to the adult.
“What do we do when he stops sulking?”
she finally turns to the adult.
“What do we do when he stops sulking?”
The adult smiles as she looks off into the distance,
the wind gentle around her as she continues eating her ice cream.
“I didn’t make it go away.
It got bored of being ignored, so he’s sulking in a corner.”
the wind gentle around her as she continues eating her ice cream.
“I didn’t make it go away.
It got bored of being ignored, so he’s sulking in a corner.”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
The adult smiles as she looks off into the distance,
the wind gentle around her as she continues eating her ice cream.
“I didn’t make it go away.
It got bored of being ignored, so he’s sulking in a corner.”
the wind gentle around her as she continues eating her ice cream.
“I didn’t make it go away.
It got bored of being ignored, so he’s sulking in a corner.”
“How did you do it?” asked the little girl.
“Do what?”
As she unwraps her ice cream, refusing to look at the adult, she says softly,
“How did you get the monster to go away?”
“Do what?”
As she unwraps her ice cream, refusing to look at the adult, she says softly,
“How did you get the monster to go away?”
June 6, 2025 at 9:51 AM
“How did you do it?” asked the little girl.
“Do what?”
As she unwraps her ice cream, refusing to look at the adult, she says softly,
“How did you get the monster to go away?”
“Do what?”
As she unwraps her ice cream, refusing to look at the adult, she says softly,
“How did you get the monster to go away?”
Thank you so much!
May 30, 2025 at 8:51 AM
Thank you so much!
