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Steve Silas Hendrickson
@phylogeneticsteve.bsky.social
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Bicolano introvert. 🌈🇵🇭

"Mamunduong tawo"

Autodidact | Folklorist | Lyrical | Mytho-confessionalist | Reflective Minimalist |

Working on my first book "When My Purple Met Your Blue"

コドモドラゴン || Phantom Siita || ザアザア || Plastic Tree ||
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One of the things I was accused of before was that I was a narcissist.

I spoke to my therapist at length, took a test (I had to pay for it), and... I scored 279. My therapist interpreted most of the questions as CPTSD coded rather than narcissism coded, so she knocked down some points.
A screenshot of a narcissist personality test, where the score says Level 3: 279 points.
November 16, 2025 at 3:59 AM
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We don't have power due to a power outage that will last four hours, so it's time to clean my Attack Shark X98 Pro, my favorite keyboard of all time.
Keyboard base, keycap slots, and keycaps of an Attack Shark X98 Pro.
November 16, 2025 at 12:50 AM
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My legs divorced 🥵

#TowerofGod
November 15, 2025 at 10:40 PM
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I too wanted to join them,
Change into...

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Flowers Fall With a gentleness unseen by Other eyes, I grabbed a leaf and petal fallen below. I wanted to love the sharp edges, my ties Vanishing—going somewhere that's not here, I know... Flowers fall, leaves fall— Where would they go when they fall? Where do they go? Where do they go? They wither until they're gone. The soil opens, its call— Their edge disappears, until its on Another tree... I too wanted to join them, Change into....
November 15, 2025 at 7:39 PM
phylogeneticsteve.bsky.social
This is an angry register for "holy shit, I'm tired."

Literal translation:

"Son of a bitch, I'm tired!"

The even more literal translation is something I cannot post here or else I'll get flagged. 🙂
Here in Bicol, we don't say I'm tired. We say "Sa buray ni ina nyang pagal!" This is an angry register for "holy shit, I'm tired." Literal translation: "Son of a bitch, I'm tired!" The more literal translation is something I cannot post here or else I'll get flagged.
November 15, 2025 at 8:03 AM
phylogeneticsteve.bsky.social
The bones of my ghosts live eternally.

Dear, dear, my former beloved!

#MPPrompt #poem #poetrycommunity #writer #WritingCommunity
Romance. Hatred. Love. Hate. Is it really romance, or is it love? Love. Hate. Joy. Despair. It's a torrid love affair We're a broken love result. The bones of my ghosts live eternally. Dear, dear, my former beloved, You said we'd be together Forever? Dear, dear, my former beloved, What happened to you proclaiming Forever? Dear, dear, my former beloved, I tore a flower to your Forever. Dear, dear, my former beloved, I loved, I hate.... Hey, You promised me right? You said you'd fight Your demons that Tore you apart. Pinky promise, alright? Months came by, and nothing happened. Your face turned into a pillar of lies. I tore another flower— Over A lie It will haunt me forever My hate did take over... Loved. Hated.
November 14, 2025 at 4:23 PM
phylogeneticsteve.bsky.social
And what hurts even more is....

They'll never understand....and probably never will.

I'm still in therapy over this but sometimes I wake up crying over the failed promises and...false love....

I'll probably never recover, and that's the hardest part.
When someone tells me to move on, but they'll never understand how deeply I loved that person.
November 14, 2025 at 4:03 AM
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A lot of love
A lot of love

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A Lot Of Love I can see a halo, a halo, I gave on An altar without you. I can smile not waver, not waver, I kept on Walking without you. Living, moving, chilling— Playing, talking, med-ing Shiver, shiver, in heaven Thinking I can begin to breathe! Hither dither a lot of love A lot of love With no glove. I don't need a poker night To have fun, tonight! Futher nearer a lot of love A lot of love, The sky above It's the last time I felt so nice, Some meat with some rice! I opened my medicine tray, They never left me astray, It's a hard easy afffair required from me daily, So I can pretend to smile!
November 13, 2025 at 4:18 PM
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I hate. No. DESPISE POST FLOOD CLEANUP LIKE MY GOD!!!

Water entered my home, my living room, dining room, bathroom, and kitchen are all muddy and I just wanna AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My back hurts, I need a hug...
A view of my home's front patio and pathway inundated with flood brought by supertyphoon Uwan. Here, part of the red gate is submerged in water, the patio itself is muddy and is still submerged. The pathway leading to the highway outside is flooded with knee deep water.
November 10, 2025 at 8:31 PM
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12:15 PM local time, supertyphoon Fung Wong (Uwan) is still hitting us hard with winds of up to 185 kph.

The weather has been like this since 6 AM. They said it'll calm down by 6 PM tonight.

I'm trying to calm down but it's hard.
November 9, 2025 at 4:17 AM
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You can see you can see you can see you can see the results,

You can see you can see you can see you can see you can seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

#poem #poetry #writer #WritingCommunity #AliceInWonderland #abuse #gaslighting #CPTSD #rumination
Phantom Pain It's where you made your bed! Deep in the dark ends of my Imagination— There is a place, What kind of space Would you dare to go inside? Inside stored away, is all Rumination— I hate it here, I cannot steer, I have no ways to steer it! Alice said she cannot bear it. Neither can I but would you even dare to? I cannot force you in this anger trap, After all you captured me in this wrap! You can see, you can see, you can see the results, It's your fault, it's your fault, you aren't a grown adult, You can see you can see you can see you can see the results, You can see you can see you can see you can see you can seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee It's where you made your bed, You made me lay in it! Hitting me with lead I can't, A poison that has spread!
November 8, 2025 at 6:17 PM
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ETA before typhoon Uwan strikes: 16 hours...
View of a city. The clouds are dark, it's around 5 PM. The roads are becoming clearer.
November 8, 2025 at 9:06 AM
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Just say it with me:
I need a new energy,
Someone with my synergy

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Quiet Musings I woke up with a migraine Locking me in bed, I drank a bit of water Felt a bit of strain, Thinking how I'm damaged A rocker with a brain— Seeing how I'm lonesome I need a Mary Jane. I'll be honest, Looking in the mirror — I'm so exhausted Thinking to myself I need a hospice, Take time away because you costed Me damage—you broke an early promise. I haven't seen a nice man, Who could be bigger than your nightmares. There are bigger fish to find than your tiny ego. Won't it be nice to find someone who cares, Just say it with me: I need a new energy, Someone with my synergy, Love me so I cannot bleed.
November 7, 2025 at 5:02 PM
phylogeneticsteve.bsky.social
I blame it on bad chem—

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Bad Chemistry You called me too much, I'm trying to live. You labored me hard, was trying to help. Exploited so much, I cannot forgive. You knocked on my door, I stood by my shelf, I saw all the snow, I know I don't care. And then you said, I'm too traumatized— And then I said, Why'd you analyze? I know, instead, You have penalized— Who's the bad boy who felt I stepped on them when I made some waves, like— Told me it's all in my, head. Maybe we were not a vibe, I blame it on bad chem— I bet you're out there screaming murder, I— How am I supposed to react to that? How am I gonna stay calm when you spat? How can I stay up, you called me a gnat? How do I recover when I'm a doormat?
November 6, 2025 at 3:39 PM
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I, sit and ignore
I, shut the door,
And I, think no more more more more

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Driving You Heard you were crying over That girl you were fawning for— Sobbing over your crushes And now they're burned to ashes. I, sit and ignore I, shut the door And I, think no more more more— I have your number blocked, Like an afterthought, But all I can say is: "I'm not really sorry for your loss." I feel so much better driving you Like a tractor. Nice! I never felt cuter making you Melt like butter, ahhh You say I'm petty, act like a bitch I know I'm pretty, cast like a witch Here they come the consequences Of your actions, yeah! I'd tweet, *this is fine!"
November 5, 2025 at 9:21 PM
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When someone tells me their weather is hot and they say it's only 25C...

when I am experiencing 37C weather...

#CampfireCooking #HourouMeshi #anime
A scene in Campfire Cooking In Another World With My Absurd Skill. The slime character named Sui is partly melted due to the sand. He is on the ground, with steam coming out of the top of his body. The caption says Huh? What? In response to a question from his owner Mukouda, asking Sui if he's ok.
November 5, 2025 at 4:52 AM
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Edikano- Partido word for a local who has fair skin and mainly speaks English

*pancit- Filipino stir fried noodles
**Bongan- evil demons and dwarves in Bicolano folklore

#MPPrompt #poem #poetrycommunity #writer #WritingCommunity #folklore
Edikano Their giggles while they touched my skin, Told me how I am not like them, That I was a precious child, unlike my kin— And I spoke English, an achievement to them But not to me, it felt like breathing air. Loved spaghetti, while they enjoyed Pancit, the other kids avoided me. Wide eyes like bongan, I felt annoyed. I'm just like them, but I feel weird, As if I'm just a ghost among the crowd. Why....why am I here?
November 3, 2025 at 6:29 PM
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This is my first attempt at writing with a more romantic, nervous voice. This helped me with overcoming my writer's block.

Please be kind to me 😅

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Buzzer Code Oh no, I'm not prepared, You're my dream come true— Bring flowers, show you cared I'll place a platter with my finest brew. And yes, I'm so nervous, I'm a klutz, a mess. Pathetic, I'm too breathless. You rang my door with your finest suit. I've got the feeling, the people next door, Know what we have, hear them seethe. But you're enjoying my box of Coors, Just staring, how do I breathe? Watching Netflix even though we're both anxious, Glances flying, holding hands through the movie's magic. Getting closer without being too obnoxious, Please stay— I'm too giddy for you! I can hear the neighbors groan about lucky men, Well, I don't care, keep me there, why don't you come again?
November 1, 2025 at 9:49 PM
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Your laughter, all of it, they burn—

And vanish with the fire when it dies.

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Burn The sun sways constantly, A pendulum moving gradually across The sky, a reminder I'm still here, Your pictures burn in a pyre I made, gradually. The boundary where I cared And the line where I bled for you, No longer exists—I bared Enough to bleed. Our dreams, a casualty. The scars, the wounds, they burn. This pyre is where sounds die. Your laughter, all of it, they burn— Your voice and your ashes, they burn And vanish with the fire when it dies.
October 29, 2025 at 8:28 PM
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Me whenever I order food for my co-workers or friends...

#CampfireCooking #HourouMeshi #anime
A scene in the anime Campfire Cooking In Another World With My Absurd Skill. Mukouda, the human, is ordering food for his three familiars, Dora-chan (pixie dragon), Sui (slime), and Fel (Fenrir). All three familiars are staring at Mukouda's Online Shop skill screen while he orders food, while they're drooling with excitement and hunger.
October 28, 2025 at 8:02 PM
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With all my heart!
With all my hurt!

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Rose Incarceration Kneel. I will imprison you In this jail of roses. My pain and passion These roses embody— My pain they'll give, Inflict on you flog per flog. My rose whip thrums. Each whip an equal To every wrong, Your deceitful love. This hurts me too, Our love once bloomed. Our souls once hungered For each other's touch. Why? But...now... With all my heart— This is my grudge. With all my hurt— These thorns ensnare— With all my heart— Your hardened skin. With all my hurt— Bleed with all your blood.
October 28, 2025 at 3:38 PM
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I'll dance within the night
If it means
I get to keep
This Twilight Flower.

#WildWalkPrompt (evening) #prompt #writesky #blueskypoets #writingprompt #poetry #poetrycommunity
Twilight Flower I choose the present, The evening a shroud, My shroud—not bent. I choose my tears, My dusk is glowing, My gems—no fears. I choose to Embrace my star. This twilight petal— It folds with me.
October 28, 2025 at 6:38 AM
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Some silent time I need.

#WildWalkPrompt (yellow) #prompt #writesky #blueskypoets #writingprompt #poem #poetry #poetrycommunity
Pages Just quiet turning of pages— Some silent time I need. Pages yellowed, old mages Once read, old spells, brave steed. Just quietly flipping pages— Dusk flowed, yellow to night. Tea simmered, no cages Keeping me, warm coat, calm sight.
October 27, 2025 at 5:45 AM
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My top 5 tracks so far this year according to Last.fm

I clearly have a pattern...

1. Just Wanna XXXX With You (Phantom Siita)
2. eternal sunshine (Ariana Grande)
3. Please Stop Loving Me (Madman's Esprit)
4. twilight zone (Ariana Grande)
5. Kamukha [Lookalike] (Blaster Silonga)
Top 5 songs from Last.fm 1. Just Wanna XXXX With You (Phantom Siita)- 1174 scrobbles 2. Eternal Sunshine (Ariana Grande)- 809 scrobbles 3. Please Stop Loving Me (Madman's Esprit)- 680 scrobbles 4. twilight zone (Ariana Grande)- 493 scrobbles 5. Kamukha (Blaster Silonga)- 452 scrobbles
October 26, 2025 at 5:21 AM
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Time to reclaim my purple—
Chase the sun

#WildWalkPrompt (dribble) #prompt #writesky #blueskypoets #writingprompt #poem #poetry #poetrycommunity
Water Off A Duck's Back I removed myself From your loop. Been pierced, distorted, I've had enough. Quite frankly you're wrong about everything, But watching your peculiar behavior is rough. Words, lies, dribble off, reflecting Off my back—weights fall off— I said before, your point of view Is poison. I don't need it—your Blue. Been hostage for a while, I'm done. Time to reclaim my purple— Chase the sun.
October 25, 2025 at 8:41 PM