this might be the worst christmas. i might have to send back the thing i wanted most

fat transgender women are my type

this isn't really a vent, just me saying what's on my mind.

...why do so many people fall in love with me? i could name at least 5 people right now that have straight up told me that they are in love with me

i hate being reminded of my age. i have always hated how young i am and i really wish i could've been born in the early 90s. i feel like i missed out on so much and there was nothing i could do about it. it makes me insanely sad. i wish i could've been there, and i wish i could've been older today

i just woke up, and i am already overwhelmed with a lot of bad stuff today. today marks one full year since the start of one of the saddest times of my life, and i've been thinking about that a lot. all that stuff helped me become a better person today, but it still really hurt me back then

i'm so tired but i'm too afraid to close my eyes. i was supposed to go see my mother later today, but that isn't going to happen anymore because i've been too afraid to go to bed and i'm going to wake up too late. if i close my eyes, i'll start thinking about things i don't want to think about again

i go on a trip for a couple days, then as soon as i step back into my own house, everything starts going downhill again. i don't even want to get out of bed right now. i don't want to live here.

at least i now know for sure that most of my sadness is caused by living in this house

i should have known that today, september 26th, wouldn't be good. today is the birthday of someone i don't talk to anymore, and i wish i wasn't constantly thinking about him. i want any memory of him completely removed, but that can't happen. i have to deal with this every year now

i am extremely overwhelmed with so many bad things. so much stress, anxiety, anger, and sadness. it's all so overwhelming to the point where i feel sick. i'm trying to sleep thinking i might feel better when i wake up but it's hard to sleep when you feel sick and you can't stop crying

trying to get myself to tell my parents i'm trans has just been giving me the most anxiety i've ever had, and this anxiety has been destroying me, making me feel extremely terrible for a few days now. i feel like a completely different person when i leave my room. someone who i don't want to be

i may not like that everything i say here will be public, but sometimes i just have things i need to say, and while i do have an account like this on twitter, i don't want to use twitter lol. i don't really mind who follows this account as long as i know who you are