I know I don't really have any followers here other than @1000eyescasts.bsky.social but if any esports/casting people have thoughts I'd like to hear them. 11/11

All things being equal if I could end up on Valve's radar I can be good enough to cast TI. I mean look at this clip. It's actually *insane* how good I can be (ignore the video quality this was actually for an audio-only stream I did when working with LeagueDay) 10/11

The first thing that comes to mind is donating every penny I get that I don't need to survive to LGBTQIA+ and anti-gambling charities but that still feels like I'm doing the wrong thing. If I were average at casting I could leave it, but looking back, I'm not. 9/11

If I *do* make it in Dota is there even a way to avoid taking the blood money? Is there a way I can protect my morals? I honestly have no clue. 8/11

So do I make the push for Dota casting and take the dirty money? Do I spend another who knows how long looking for someone to even give me a call for systems administration work? Can I make any of this work if I'm hopping from place to place trying to avoid the wrath of people who want me dead? 7/11

I *have* to move somewhere safe and I can't do that without a job it seems. I may be able to stay with a friend in northern VA for a bit but that only delays things. Everything sucks and it is making me rethink all my life choices up to this point. 6/11

I've been out of the job since May and it's likely I'll have to file for Chapter 7 just to keep myself from ending up on the streets. On top of that Georgia won't be safe for me under a Trump presidency; he went for the immigrants on day 1 and trans/enby people like myself are literally *next* 5/11

The last two years of job searching have been absolutely brutal and demoralizing. I'm overqualified for almost everything I apply for and I can't even get an interview for *any* of it. 4/11

But I'm not happy being semi-retired. I look at myself and think of what I could be doing if I *actually* put in the effort. I'm just scared that following this passion would lead me to be morally bankrupt. At the end of the day the job that would make me the *most* happy is shoutcasting Dota. 3/11

On the other hand, all the money in *my* esport (Dota) is dirty, either from shady gambling sponsors or from countries that would literally kill me for setting foot within their borders. I told myself when I quit casting LoL that I could live with just casting Dota as a hobby and I'd be happy. 2/11

If you haven't already you should play CrossCode. One of my favorites and it may be up your alley.