Philip
@philnguyen.bsky.social
Current: reading & writing poems, meditation, cultivating attention, data
I'm in my darkness and shadow era. Welcome grief, frustration, anger, sadness, realism
April 11, 2025 at 2:20 PM
I'm in my darkness and shadow era. Welcome grief, frustration, anger, sadness, realism
Did you know Rilke also wrote in French? From his later poems, after the Duino Elegies and Sonnets to Orpheus
March 30, 2025 at 11:29 AM
Did you know Rilke also wrote in French? From his later poems, after the Duino Elegies and Sonnets to Orpheus
I am having a ball reading the poetry of Charles Bukowski. What does that say about me lol. He's funny. He touches on the crudeness in all of us who has perhaps been squashed in the name of civility and politeness. It feels kind of wrong to like him. But there's a realness there that's refreshing
March 28, 2025 at 1:08 AM
I am having a ball reading the poetry of Charles Bukowski. What does that say about me lol. He's funny. He touches on the crudeness in all of us who has perhaps been squashed in the name of civility and politeness. It feels kind of wrong to like him. But there's a realness there that's refreshing
Damn, I really want to play this game but don’t have any consoles or a pc to support it
Outer Wilds update: I am beginning to recognize the shapes of pieces that might, at some point in the future, fit together into a solved puzzle
January 5, 2025 at 1:06 PM
Damn, I really want to play this game but don’t have any consoles or a pc to support it
I'm going to try very hard not to read self-helpy, psychology type stuff. I think I'm at the point where there are diminishing returns wrt their utility. Better to read stories, to focus on others, simply "doing" stuff. But now I'm like: "now what" lol – all of this was a big part of my days
December 31, 2024 at 1:59 AM
I'm going to try very hard not to read self-helpy, psychology type stuff. I think I'm at the point where there are diminishing returns wrt their utility. Better to read stories, to focus on others, simply "doing" stuff. But now I'm like: "now what" lol – all of this was a big part of my days
Great article on the difference between chaplaincy, therapy, and ministry, from the perspective of a zen practitioner. (Who is also an academic and psychologist!) I've been looking into the same contemplative care program he mentions.
www.existentialbuddhist.com/2017/05/cont...
www.existentialbuddhist.com/2017/05/cont...
Contemplative Chaplaincy, Psychotherapy, and Buddhist Ministry: Similarities and Differences – The Existential Buddhist
www.existentialbuddhist.com
December 30, 2024 at 6:00 PM
Great article on the difference between chaplaincy, therapy, and ministry, from the perspective of a zen practitioner. (Who is also an academic and psychologist!) I've been looking into the same contemplative care program he mentions.
www.existentialbuddhist.com/2017/05/cont...
www.existentialbuddhist.com/2017/05/cont...
In a phase of my life where I want to create more meaningful relationships - and then I meet this girl who puts that want to the test. I feel this tension between needing it to be “a thing” and wanting to simply be in relationship without definition. The pressure (from myself) is crushing at times
July 31, 2024 at 5:37 PM
In a phase of my life where I want to create more meaningful relationships - and then I meet this girl who puts that want to the test. I feel this tension between needing it to be “a thing” and wanting to simply be in relationship without definition. The pressure (from myself) is crushing at times
In the ED with a girl I like and it’s honestly one of the most romantic things ever lmao
July 19, 2024 at 4:43 PM
In the ED with a girl I like and it’s honestly one of the most romantic things ever lmao
What’s wrong step-Buddha do you need help self-regulating?
June 25, 2024 at 9:29 PM
What’s wrong step-Buddha do you need help self-regulating?
Nearly done reading Strangers to Ourselves. I’m reeling over the author’s story toward the end and how getting on Lexapro made her more spontaneous, sociable, creative, and all around a “better” person. She wanted to get married and have kids too bc of it.
June 3, 2024 at 12:59 AM
Nearly done reading Strangers to Ourselves. I’m reeling over the author’s story toward the end and how getting on Lexapro made her more spontaneous, sociable, creative, and all around a “better” person. She wanted to get married and have kids too bc of it.
How much more grounded I feel after some social fun and serendipitous encounters in nyc!
June 1, 2024 at 8:31 PM
How much more grounded I feel after some social fun and serendipitous encounters in nyc!
Interest and energy seem highly correlated. My desire to read certain things, to engage with certain people, to learn difficult things, is highly dependent on how energetic I feel. Takeaway: don’t give up on things right away—it may be an energy problem. You may just need a break!
June 1, 2024 at 12:40 PM
Interest and energy seem highly correlated. My desire to read certain things, to engage with certain people, to learn difficult things, is highly dependent on how energetic I feel. Takeaway: don’t give up on things right away—it may be an energy problem. You may just need a break!
Tired of self-help. Tired of platitudes and gutless inspiration. I want to get dirty and gritty. I want to let my anger out. I want to be consumed by contingencies and chaos.
June 1, 2024 at 12:28 PM
Tired of self-help. Tired of platitudes and gutless inspiration. I want to get dirty and gritty. I want to let my anger out. I want to be consumed by contingencies and chaos.
Can’t wait to move into my place next week. Things I want to do once I’m settled:
- join BJJ gym
- start Latin dance classes
- go birding with locals
- write more
- join BJJ gym
- start Latin dance classes
- go birding with locals
- write more
June 1, 2024 at 12:25 PM
Can’t wait to move into my place next week. Things I want to do once I’m settled:
- join BJJ gym
- start Latin dance classes
- go birding with locals
- write more
- join BJJ gym
- start Latin dance classes
- go birding with locals
- write more
I used to be able to sit around and read all day. I still can do that if I’m really into the book. But I need more than that now, especially if the books are difficult and not of main interest. I feel like I need to engage more fully, learn less through books and more through experience.
June 1, 2024 at 12:22 PM
I used to be able to sit around and read all day. I still can do that if I’m really into the book. But I need more than that now, especially if the books are difficult and not of main interest. I feel like I need to engage more fully, learn less through books and more through experience.
Every time I read philosophy my mind just kinda snoozes. It’s such a funny thing bc even statistics and math are more appealing to me. What I like most are stories, specific individuals, edge cases.
June 1, 2024 at 12:20 PM
Every time I read philosophy my mind just kinda snoozes. It’s such a funny thing bc even statistics and math are more appealing to me. What I like most are stories, specific individuals, edge cases.
The urge to go read at a bar on a Friday evening in nyc is strong.. but also drinks are so expensive.. will go ponder in Central Park for a bit ..
May 31, 2024 at 9:17 PM
The urge to go read at a bar on a Friday evening in nyc is strong.. but also drinks are so expensive.. will go ponder in Central Park for a bit ..
It’s dawned on me that I’ve lived my life thus far trying to reduce uncertainty and friction, which is to say that part of me hasn’t lived at all. I went into psych for god’s sake thinking that I’d know what to do with my life if I understood my brain and mind well enough. Life simply went: lmao
May 31, 2024 at 3:01 PM
It’s dawned on me that I’ve lived my life thus far trying to reduce uncertainty and friction, which is to say that part of me hasn’t lived at all. I went into psych for god’s sake thinking that I’d know what to do with my life if I understood my brain and mind well enough. Life simply went: lmao
I want to earnest/stream of conscious post more often, so that’s what I’ll do here. This is an attempt to get over the fear of being judged as dumb, inconsistent, paradoxical. It’d probably be better to do in the presence of those I fear being judged by, but we all gotta start somewhere.
May 31, 2024 at 12:46 PM
I want to earnest/stream of conscious post more often, so that’s what I’ll do here. This is an attempt to get over the fear of being judged as dumb, inconsistent, paradoxical. It’d probably be better to do in the presence of those I fear being judged by, but we all gotta start somewhere.
Sometimes a little nudge is all people need to make big changes.
October 23, 2023 at 10:19 AM
Sometimes a little nudge is all people need to make big changes.
Anyone know how to make a video game? I have some ideas that I think could be fun to build on, would appreciate some pointers! I'm thinking something like a small-scale puzzle game.
September 24, 2023 at 4:12 PM
Anyone know how to make a video game? I have some ideas that I think could be fun to build on, would appreciate some pointers! I'm thinking something like a small-scale puzzle game.