When I don’t do something about it I just feel trapped and when I have manic episodes EVERYTHING comes to the surface three times worse.

I wish more people would talk about how destructive this part of BPD is because I’m tired of dealing with it.

No “cure” for it. Even after therapy, even after practicing coping mechanisms, it feels incredibly… debilitating.
Stigmas around it make it hard to swallow too.

“So, are you going to cheat on me?”
“So, I’m not good enough for you?”
“So, our sex is bad? That’s why you want more to compensate?”

Never heard about the tag but welp :(

Thiissss. I hate when people get mad at me because I’m analyzing the plot/director thought process while creating a scene 🥲

Fri Y A Y

And I’m not saying I’m the best or whatever, just saying that it would work on me and sometimes I need somebody than can give me attention and to actually be interested in what I feel. Empties “oh, that’s so bad” are killing me slowly.

+and here? Nobody knows me.

And I’m filled with questions tonight and honestly I feel like I needed a good cry. I miss my country, but I don’t feel the coldness in my heart, I don’t miss feeling left out.

I only miss the idea of being missed, but nowadays I understand that I’m not. Back “home” nobody remembers me+