Sigh.

I’m so exhausted. I’m scared. I don’t like being here in this community.

I just saw a tweet about kpdh and I was like AUGHEHSJHSJEHRJFJJFHFJFJJRJF
and then I felt that funny happy little backflip in my chest
The kind of silly joy that comes with new fixations

UGHHHH IDK TT

There’s not enough time.

I need it to be over. I need the demons in my head to be silent.

Is it worth remembering the ghost of a personality? Especially one who couldn’t be understood?

Is it worth being alive at all when you can’t trust yourself to keep going?

I wonder if this is what was destined for me:

I was never meant to be happy. I was meant to die at my own hands.

Speaking of macarons
I gotta start making my chocolate macarons yahooo

It’s okayyyy
I had a good day in the OR and was having some crippling anxiety when I came home that all the doctors actually hate me but it’s okayyyyy I’m Furina maxxing and making macarons hehe

I think it’s sleepy time
I’m shadowing in the OR tomorrow!! Another reprieve from the demons yippeeee