My favorite is Harry Disco 🪩

(Disco Elysium, of course)

My partner asks so little of me, he goes to work and makes money and all I have to do in addition to trying to get healthy is a few simple tasks.

But my nervous system is on fire. Everything in me says I can't do it.

If I can't drain water into a bucket, how am I supposed to make a living?

Except now I'm completely frozen. Still in full meltdown mode about it. I'm being told to get a bucket and try to drain it manually but that task seems insurmountable. Do we even have a bucket? Would it need to be cleaned? How can I prevent water from spilling onto the already moldy floor?

If I lived alone or with previous roommates that would have been the end of it. All my clothes would be ruined and eventually begin to mold

But since I have a partner who himself has access to a father with basic household maintenance skills, I have things he's said I can try to do to fix it...

So the only thing I was able to do is beg my partner not to just forget about this and let our clothes marinate in shit water. I just kept repeating that I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do

Not knowing what to do has never been a problem before but now it completely disables me

So then I try to dry my clothes and notice they are dripping wet. The washing machine isn't completing its spin cycle.

I'm normally the one to handle things like this, I'm the fixer, I'm who starts googling and looking into mechanics, but since my brain crapped out I haven't been able to do shit,,,

It began with the smell and I tried desperately to ignore it because I've been having "phantom smells" where I smell things that aren't real fairly often the past month or so because of my complex migraines. Literally fucking with my head. And my partner always says he "doesn't smell anything"

Thanks to racism my mother didn't! I'M certainly going to listen to that series though, been thinking about that culture now that ozempic is mainstream

People seem to mostly paint sneakers*****

Not being able to edit posts is a real problem for meeee

Leather ideally, but I can probably paint pleather too! Running shoes or sneakers are the most common things. People seem to paint with my paints but I'd love to do boots and stuff too

All of the work had to be done with my own elbow grease too, desperately trying to explain situations or concepts to them verbally because it was the only way they would even begin to pretend to listen. Never again

Everyone who dates men deserves one one that knows how to educate himself