onepolartwo
@onepolartwo.bsky.social
Human, Coffee Nerd. Sometimes a butthole. Bipolar 1, Autism, and BPD. Father of a 9yr old, nonverbal, son with Autism
Rarely on Bluesky, so much going on. The highs, the lows, the obsessions in my life. Sometimes it hard for me to figure out if it is my bipolar or autism.. or both
May 24, 2025 at 3:31 PM
Rarely on Bluesky, so much going on. The highs, the lows, the obsessions in my life. Sometimes it hard for me to figure out if it is my bipolar or autism.. or both
Filling out disability qualification paperwork is causing my anxiety and levels of embarrassment to increase. It has to be done… but it is extremely hard to do. Wish they could do this part of the process easier. Afraid it will help induce a bi-polar episode.. just as I have been feeling more “even”
May 6, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Filling out disability qualification paperwork is causing my anxiety and levels of embarrassment to increase. It has to be done… but it is extremely hard to do. Wish they could do this part of the process easier. Afraid it will help induce a bi-polar episode.. just as I have been feeling more “even”
When you are bipolar, taking your meds is just an important spoke in the wheel… but I would argue that it is the most important thing you can do for yourself, and others, that day.
May 1, 2025 at 2:27 PM
When you are bipolar, taking your meds is just an important spoke in the wheel… but I would argue that it is the most important thing you can do for yourself, and others, that day.
Filling SSDI is a blast (NOT.) Brings up all the intricacies of me having BPD1. Had to call the disability determination department and ask for more time because I can only handle it in small chunks. Wish I wasn’t bipolar when I read through my answers.
April 30, 2025 at 4:55 PM
Filling SSDI is a blast (NOT.) Brings up all the intricacies of me having BPD1. Had to call the disability determination department and ask for more time because I can only handle it in small chunks. Wish I wasn’t bipolar when I read through my answers.
Don’t know what’s going on. Been dealing with the depressive bill shit, but a couple nights in a row very manic and not sleeping. No clue what to think about it.
April 29, 2025 at 12:42 PM
Don’t know what’s going on. Been dealing with the depressive bill shit, but a couple nights in a row very manic and not sleeping. No clue what to think about it.
Not feeling too shabby today (so far.) Definitely “numb.” Working late afternoon. Hoping I can keep myself together through the entire day.
April 26, 2025 at 1:51 PM
Not feeling too shabby today (so far.) Definitely “numb.” Working late afternoon. Hoping I can keep myself together through the entire day.
This depressive episode is getting to me and my spouse just doesn’t understand. She thinks I can just snap a finger and get out of it. She is also tired of me reminding her that this is a symptom of my Bipolar. I love her to pieces, but she is not helping.. but making it worse (sigh)
April 25, 2025 at 1:11 PM
This depressive episode is getting to me and my spouse just doesn’t understand. She thinks I can just snap a finger and get out of it. She is also tired of me reminding her that this is a symptom of my Bipolar. I love her to pieces, but she is not helping.. but making it worse (sigh)
This bipolar depressive episode is one of the weirdest ones I have had…literally everything is pissing me off, but cannot get out of my room. Pretty much have a fuck the world and fuck people mentality
I don’t like it, but cannot snap a finger and change it
I don’t like it, but cannot snap a finger and change it
April 24, 2025 at 5:44 PM
This bipolar depressive episode is one of the weirdest ones I have had…literally everything is pissing me off, but cannot get out of my room. Pretty much have a fuck the world and fuck people mentality
I don’t like it, but cannot snap a finger and change it
I don’t like it, but cannot snap a finger and change it
I guess cycling through the mania and the depression in a same day is my current new equilibrium. Well that blows. Maybe should sleep, nah overrated for tonight. Another fun day (and night) of having bipolar disorder.
April 24, 2025 at 9:12 AM
I guess cycling through the mania and the depression in a same day is my current new equilibrium. Well that blows. Maybe should sleep, nah overrated for tonight. Another fun day (and night) of having bipolar disorder.
My day living with the beginnings of a bipolar depressive episode and trying to be funny
Not sure if you can see the smile on my face.
Not sure if you can see the smile on my face.
April 23, 2025 at 5:51 PM
My day living with the beginnings of a bipolar depressive episode and trying to be funny
Not sure if you can see the smile on my face.
Not sure if you can see the smile on my face.
Did a job interview on Friday. Randomly started crying in the interview for no reason. Embarrassed and walked out of the interview. Spent next two days in my spare bedroom. Med doctor was running behind so had to see a new/shitty one. Feel like dog shit now
April 23, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Did a job interview on Friday. Randomly started crying in the interview for no reason. Embarrassed and walked out of the interview. Spent next two days in my spare bedroom. Med doctor was running behind so had to see a new/shitty one. Feel like dog shit now
I feel extremely down and depressed today. Some of the reasons I understand, some of the reasons I have no clue. I hope this doesn’t last through tomorrow…….
April 22, 2025 at 9:59 PM
I feel extremely down and depressed today. Some of the reasons I understand, some of the reasons I have no clue. I hope this doesn’t last through tomorrow…….
Sounds weird, as I have never even downloaded Tik Tok, but thinking about doing a series of Tik Tok videos starring a (diagnosed) bipolar sock pocket. Don’t care if anyone even notices.. but sounds like something worth my time.. and kind of fun. Won’t be any insensitive info or behavior shared
April 21, 2025 at 4:25 PM
Sounds weird, as I have never even downloaded Tik Tok, but thinking about doing a series of Tik Tok videos starring a (diagnosed) bipolar sock pocket. Don’t care if anyone even notices.. but sounds like something worth my time.. and kind of fun. Won’t be any insensitive info or behavior shared
Why Idespise small talk.”Hey, how are you doing?” My: “Well pretty shitty, my medicine is fucking with me.”Then I end with “Enough about me, how are you!” Do people ask questions and NOT want honest hours, I lean towards yes. Cannot tell if that is my Bipolar, autism, or asshole attitude talking
April 21, 2025 at 4:01 PM
Why Idespise small talk.”Hey, how are you doing?” My: “Well pretty shitty, my medicine is fucking with me.”Then I end with “Enough about me, how are you!” Do people ask questions and NOT want honest hours, I lean towards yes. Cannot tell if that is my Bipolar, autism, or asshole attitude talking
As some are aware I am underemployed while I apply for SSDI. I cannot handle a so called “normal job,” to put in perspective I had nine jobs in 12 months due to my bipolar disorder. Tried Door Dashing last night.. took ALOT out of me but I think I can do this one for now. Wish me continued luck
April 21, 2025 at 1:11 PM
As some are aware I am underemployed while I apply for SSDI. I cannot handle a so called “normal job,” to put in perspective I had nine jobs in 12 months due to my bipolar disorder. Tried Door Dashing last night.. took ALOT out of me but I think I can do this one for now. Wish me continued luck
Soooo.. since I have to be cautious not too make too much money per month while I am applying for SSDI, I have decided to try and give Door Dashing a go. This afternoon is my 1st attempt
Wish me luck!!
FYI I absolutely love Spaceballs 🤣😅🤣
Wish me luck!!
FYI I absolutely love Spaceballs 🤣😅🤣
April 19, 2025 at 3:54 PM
Soooo.. since I have to be cautious not too make too much money per month while I am applying for SSDI, I have decided to try and give Door Dashing a go. This afternoon is my 1st attempt
Wish me luck!!
FYI I absolutely love Spaceballs 🤣😅🤣
Wish me luck!!
FYI I absolutely love Spaceballs 🤣😅🤣
I hate it when a day is planned a specific way, and my spouse intentionally throws it out of order. I wanted my “me” time not rushed. She knew that. A huge …Fuck Fuck Fuck. Not having signs of mania, it is ok to just be a bipolar person and just pissed sometimes
April 18, 2025 at 3:47 PM
I hate it when a day is planned a specific way, and my spouse intentionally throws it out of order. I wanted my “me” time not rushed. She knew that. A huge …Fuck Fuck Fuck. Not having signs of mania, it is ok to just be a bipolar person and just pissed sometimes
Annoying when you look at your BP feed, and you see so many people trying to sell a book. As someone with Bipolar Disorder this is really annoying… for me at least
April 17, 2025 at 2:20 PM
Annoying when you look at your BP feed, and you see so many people trying to sell a book. As someone with Bipolar Disorder this is really annoying… for me at least
Doctor said my new medicine would take two to three weeks before I really started feeling the benefits. First antipsychotic I have ever taken. Actually feel better today than I have in a long time. Hallelujah
April 17, 2025 at 2:11 PM
Doctor said my new medicine would take two to three weeks before I really started feeling the benefits. First antipsychotic I have ever taken. Actually feel better today than I have in a long time. Hallelujah
Finished intake with third therapist this year (didn’t care for 1 or 2.)
Always such fun going through your entire life and your BD for an hour and a half. Seems like cool guy, but let’s see……..
Always such fun going through your entire life and your BD for an hour and a half. Seems like cool guy, but let’s see……..
April 16, 2025 at 4:23 PM
Finished intake with third therapist this year (didn’t care for 1 or 2.)
Always such fun going through your entire life and your BD for an hour and a half. Seems like cool guy, but let’s see……..
Always such fun going through your entire life and your BD for an hour and a half. Seems like cool guy, but let’s see……..
1st therapy session with a new therapist tomorrow. Not sure why I am always a pessimist. Automatically think I know more than them (yes yes yes I know that’s not fair.) Here’s is to tomorrow 🥤
Bipolar Life lol
Bipolar Life lol
April 15, 2025 at 2:32 PM
1st therapy session with a new therapist tomorrow. Not sure why I am always a pessimist. Automatically think I know more than them (yes yes yes I know that’s not fair.) Here’s is to tomorrow 🥤
Bipolar Life lol
Bipolar Life lol
I “think” my wife is now letting me play my favorite online video game for hours because she thinks it helps with the bipolar, or more likely… she wants me to not talk lol
April 14, 2025 at 2:57 PM
I “think” my wife is now letting me play my favorite online video game for hours because she thinks it helps with the bipolar, or more likely… she wants me to not talk lol
Woke up.Wife getting ready for work.I tried to make her laugh.I quietly sang to myself.. won’t share her response, but now feel like she is acting as if manic, but not even close… just wanted to take 30 seconds before she went to work to make her giggle. Sucks having BP1 period. Bipolar life
April 13, 2025 at 1:53 PM
Woke up.Wife getting ready for work.I tried to make her laugh.I quietly sang to myself.. won’t share her response, but now feel like she is acting as if manic, but not even close… just wanted to take 30 seconds before she went to work to make her giggle. Sucks having BP1 period. Bipolar life
Quick favor for your Saturday.
Please....
Just give someone a hug. That's it!
Sometimes the best way to feel good that day, is to help make someone else's day.
Take care Bipolar Peeps
Please....
Just give someone a hug. That's it!
Sometimes the best way to feel good that day, is to help make someone else's day.
Take care Bipolar Peeps
April 12, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Quick favor for your Saturday.
Please....
Just give someone a hug. That's it!
Sometimes the best way to feel good that day, is to help make someone else's day.
Take care Bipolar Peeps
Please....
Just give someone a hug. That's it!
Sometimes the best way to feel good that day, is to help make someone else's day.
Take care Bipolar Peeps
Ouchie from my last manic episode. About six weeks before my meds were adjusted last. What set me off? Was in a manic episode.Someone rolled their eyes at me. In retrospective I feel crappy about it, but 😸 my meds are in order now. Now time to fix the drywall lol (1 of 2 holes.) Bipolar moments
April 11, 2025 at 12:53 PM
Ouchie from my last manic episode. About six weeks before my meds were adjusted last. What set me off? Was in a manic episode.Someone rolled their eyes at me. In retrospective I feel crappy about it, but 😸 my meds are in order now. Now time to fix the drywall lol (1 of 2 holes.) Bipolar moments