I will use this power irresponsibly but I assure you it will be funny

there are entire groups of people who’ve had the relationship me and my dad have, but with the government. I can’t fathom how to truly fix the relationship with my dad. He’d have to change and, the government also has to change if we want better.

We still don’t call much. There’s too much said, too much pain, too much dysfunction. I’d need a real apology, which I will never get and I know that. I don’t think there’s a lesson in any of this or anything. Im just sad it’s like this and that it’s like this every day and that

My dad’s playing nice right now. Based on the radio station I heard him listening to I don’t think he’s changed much, I just think he knows those views will absolutely make his kids leave him. He doesn’t know what to do with that so he’s chose to shut up for the time being.

This last decade has been like me unlearning that I’m some evil Other Thing at the same time as my dad taking over the world. Idk why I’m being vulnerable on the Internet this morning, I’ve just got a lot of feelings and not a lot of space to talk about them.

“Even talk like them (democrats).” I was transitioning ideologically away from electoral politics at that point, so I always find that moment funny looking back on it. Every time I thought I found my footing he would pull the rug and make me question myself again.

he took from me. Every time I expressed a view that celebrated someone he thought was wrong, I was a tormentor. The bringer of all the evil. The other side. “Them”. I once chose to speak to him compassionately instead of yelling and the rage in his face only increased until he was shouting that I

We could all just get houses and chill instead. Farm little farms and break bread together. I don’t understand why humans seem to want to be like this. Nothing is written, nothing is inevitable, and yet. I’m exhausted.

So the formula plays out. Good struggles against evil and you can say that good always wins in the end, but who determines the end? You could say the same thing about evil. It has the same cycle, the same wins, it causes pain and then it’s defeated only to rise again.