basically you do have value as a whole person and in all your interests but it’s completely understandable that it’s hard to believe that. and im saying all this bc i recognize that pain and want you to be able to recover even if im not sure what the path is.

at the risk of being annoyingly solutionizing i did find value in camus whole notion of paying up to the absurdity and indignity of being alive useful a few months ago. and books like it wasnt your fault or ptsd surviving to thriving to be a good hit of validation with some coping mechanisms to boot

something tells me just saying that you have value. even if i back it up with evidence like how cool the film photos are or how fast you’ve adopted a new hobby that it won’t really convince that fear to go away.

I’m trying to think of what i would have wanted to hear from someone on the internet about a year ago and im honestly not sure. its a hard place to be when it feels like people wont even look at you unless you can roll over for them just right.

it is worrying. i remember feeling like that around the same point in my life so you’re not alone in that pain. but its an awful place to be and you don’t deserve to feel worthless like that.

even if the word is completely nonsexual and not related to illicit drugs or anything like that, autocorrect will very frequently ignore a completely obvious correction of an anatomical word, a scientific word, etc. meanwhile the things fucking autocapitalize and correct brand and product names.

in 3 years you will be healed and all the world will shine with your compassion and you will move through the world with so much regulation it will seem as though it is actually you moving the world

music is so awesome... lets leave programming behind forever

i dont think its real tbh, like i think they say that to scare people but if you talk to them theyll walk it back at least a little