I'm probably gonna isolate myself now, too.
I can't deal with this pain anymore.

I'm even accepting the fact that I'm not worthy of love, either.
Especially platonic love and romantic love.

I'm so tired.
I'm not worthy of anything, and I'm accepting that now.

I already lost a few more friends and had more people cut me off this year alone.
Most of them being friends of a decade or more.

I'll be on my own again.
And if it does happen again, I'll accept it.

I have people who care about me, sure.
But what if they leave me?

And it still fucking does even now.
Even though I've been away from home for half a year now.

I'm so tired of drawing.
I want to just give up on it all at this point.

I can't do this anymore.
Especially since I don't even think I'm a good artist, anymore.

Maybe I should actually just cut people off at this point.
I can't trust anyone at this point, so what's the point of keeping my relationships with others if I can't even trust them anymore?

Including my fucking friends, my qpps, my romantic partners, and even my fiancee.
I'm so tired of this shit.

I'm also very much not willing to trust anyone random anymore at this point.
And this person pretty much destroyed my trust issues for other people.

I literally cannot trust anyone new n shit because of this fucker.
I'm always tempted to cut literally everyone off and isolate myself for god knows how long.