A bit late to the party but this is what I drew for my friend as a Christmas gift. It shows her and people and characters related to her enjoying Christmas.

Depression is a bitch. It's like constantly losing against yourself. Every where you go you see reasons why you're worthless. And no matter how often you tell yourself that mean voice is lying your mind's rather listening to the mean voice than yourself.

I get what people like about watching streams and the parasocial relationships. I mean, I would never pay money for it, but it can be soothing to listen to someone and have them occasionally react to your comments during he stream.

To me, everything feels pointless right now. Sleep, work, eat, repeat. I don't have the ambitions and confidence to believe anything I could achieve would have any meaning. So many ideas on my to do list I procrastinate on because I fear they could end in failure, despite... not starting is worse.

These days I can only wonder what drives people to learn new skills or motivate themselves to work on hobby projects. I deeply admire anyone who doesn't give up on their dreams and goals. Keep going.