A bit late to the party but this is what I drew for my friend as a Christmas gift. It shows her and people and characters related to her enjoying Christmas.

So, eventuall you just deal with it. Put up a mask. Say, it's okay. You don't want to bother anyone with it anyway. You don't seek help anymore. It will work out eventually. It always has until now, why should that change? So the broken you just steps forwards - how many? You know only after.

And if you're a guy, things become even a bit worse. After all a part of the people expects you to just man up. Deal with it. You're not supposed to be emotional vulnerable. That hurts even more and makes you think that you don't really fit what you're supposed to be. So you keep hiding it more.

Talking to friends helps a little but without professional help it doesn't become better. And eventually you start getting afraid to talk to your friends about it because you just keep repeating yourself, and you start to think others are off worse so you shouldn't complain.

And then you feel demotivated to do anything. You don't feel joy in the things you like. You don't have ambitions to work on any projects. And then you feel even more worthless for being "a lazy piece of shit". At least that is what you call yourself.

Depression is a bitch. It's like constantly losing against yourself. Every where you go you see reasons why you're worthless. And no matter how often you tell yourself that mean voice is lying your mind's rather listening to the mean voice than yourself.

Yeah - I'm not 100 percent sure the group therapy is the right thing but it's the first time I actually have success to get any kind of therapy at all.

I didn't know that this is possible to be honest. Just called through a list of therapists so far.

Thanks <3 I know that it's probably just a downwards spiral of my own thoughts. I'm currently trying to to get myself some therapy though lots of request are met with refusal. Currently I have an outlook of a group therapy but progress is slow. First interview a week ago, next in a month.

I get what people like about watching streams and the parasocial relationships. I mean, I would never pay money for it, but it can be soothing to listen to someone and have them occasionally react to your comments during he stream.

To me, everything feels pointless right now. Sleep, work, eat, repeat. I don't have the ambitions and confidence to believe anything I could achieve would have any meaning. So many ideas on my to do list I procrastinate on because I fear they could end in failure, despite... not starting is worse.

These days I can only wonder what drives people to learn new skills or motivate themselves to work on hobby projects. I deeply admire anyone who doesn't give up on their dreams and goals. Keep going.

Ich weiß das schon länger, aber das heißt nicht, dass es nicht doch irgendwie unangenehm ist. Gerade, wenn die Perso dann meint, dich auf dem Kicker zu haben.

Man könnte argumentieren, es ist ja auch etwas Gutes, wenn ein Fleischprodukt im Preis nach open geht, aber ich glaube die vegetarischen Döner kosten meist das gleiche, oder?

Um welchen Anime gehts genau?

Ach dafür brauchst du die ganzen Screenshots, für Bsky!