this year is a testament of my desire to be alive.
December 26, 2025 at 10:49 AM
this year is a testament of my desire to be alive.
now i understand the feeling of running out of time in your twenties. still 18 but fuck.
December 22, 2025 at 10:17 PM
now i understand the feeling of running out of time in your twenties. still 18 but fuck.
I be Cplusplusing my code
December 4, 2025 at 5:06 AM
I be Cplusplusing my code
people who fake depression are scum.
December 4, 2025 at 2:30 AM
people who fake depression are scum.
There's so much beauty in this world thats completely obfuscated by my mortality.
I don't want my dog to die, I want to hear my father speak for hours on end. I want to hug my mother.I want to feel the sand beneath my feet and be thankful to be alive.
I don't want my dog to die, I want to hear my father speak for hours on end. I want to hug my mother.I want to feel the sand beneath my feet and be thankful to be alive.
November 26, 2025 at 7:42 AM
There's so much beauty in this world thats completely obfuscated by my mortality.
I don't want my dog to die, I want to hear my father speak for hours on end. I want to hug my mother.I want to feel the sand beneath my feet and be thankful to be alive.
I don't want my dog to die, I want to hear my father speak for hours on end. I want to hug my mother.I want to feel the sand beneath my feet and be thankful to be alive.
We spend so much time worrying about nonexistential issues.
It makes us forget that life's worth living.
It makes us forget that life's worth living.
November 26, 2025 at 7:34 AM
We spend so much time worrying about nonexistential issues.
It makes us forget that life's worth living.
It makes us forget that life's worth living.
i can’t stand the fact that there are artists who spend their life honing their craft and being some of the best there are, just for a soulless industry plant to come along and take that place.
true artists don’t do this shit for the money, but at the same time, you have to eat.
true artists don’t do this shit for the money, but at the same time, you have to eat.
November 24, 2025 at 7:02 AM
i can’t stand the fact that there are artists who spend their life honing their craft and being some of the best there are, just for a soulless industry plant to come along and take that place.
true artists don’t do this shit for the money, but at the same time, you have to eat.
true artists don’t do this shit for the money, but at the same time, you have to eat.
alcohol makes me want to smoke
some
WEED
some
WEED
November 23, 2025 at 3:30 AM
alcohol makes me want to smoke
some
WEED
some
WEED
the longer i sleep, the more drained i feel. even in my dreams im aware that the longer im in them, the closer i am to having to experience my life again.
November 22, 2025 at 6:53 AM
the longer i sleep, the more drained i feel. even in my dreams im aware that the longer im in them, the closer i am to having to experience my life again.
whenever anything interesting happens to me, i don’t have anyone to share it with.
it feels like others always have that one person they can rely on to talk to, and it feels like asking for desperate attention for wanting that.
i want to share my life.
it feels like others always have that one person they can rely on to talk to, and it feels like asking for desperate attention for wanting that.
i want to share my life.
November 22, 2025 at 5:53 AM
whenever anything interesting happens to me, i don’t have anyone to share it with.
it feels like others always have that one person they can rely on to talk to, and it feels like asking for desperate attention for wanting that.
i want to share my life.
it feels like others always have that one person they can rely on to talk to, and it feels like asking for desperate attention for wanting that.
i want to share my life.
i don’t deserve to eat.
November 20, 2025 at 2:06 AM
i don’t deserve to eat.
I doubt hell exists. Which is a shame, because I wish it did. I hope it does so people like Trump burn in hell.
November 18, 2025 at 8:29 AM
I doubt hell exists. Which is a shame, because I wish it did. I hope it does so people like Trump burn in hell.
I lost her because I wasn't able to keep up with myself. I ruined it.
I wonder what she's up to now. I'll never know.
I wonder what she's up to now. I'll never know.
November 18, 2025 at 8:17 AM
I lost her because I wasn't able to keep up with myself. I ruined it.
I wonder what she's up to now. I'll never know.
I wonder what she's up to now. I'll never know.
Just saw a post of someone saying goodbye, commiting suicide.
As a kid I remember thinking, "People who attempt suicide are so dumb". I understand now. I wish I would've stayed with such a naive sense of the world.
As a kid I remember thinking, "People who attempt suicide are so dumb". I understand now. I wish I would've stayed with such a naive sense of the world.
November 18, 2025 at 8:13 AM
Just saw a post of someone saying goodbye, commiting suicide.
As a kid I remember thinking, "People who attempt suicide are so dumb". I understand now. I wish I would've stayed with such a naive sense of the world.
As a kid I remember thinking, "People who attempt suicide are so dumb". I understand now. I wish I would've stayed with such a naive sense of the world.
Fun story, I almost killed myself with diphendydramine (Fancy name for Benadryl). I was so committed I actually bought a 20 pack just for the occation. Stared at it on my bed for 4 hours before crying myself to sleep.
November 18, 2025 at 8:10 AM
Fun story, I almost killed myself with diphendydramine (Fancy name for Benadryl). I was so committed I actually bought a 20 pack just for the occation. Stared at it on my bed for 4 hours before crying myself to sleep.
I need to stop sharing so much about me.
November 18, 2025 at 7:37 AM
I need to stop sharing so much about me.
I thought I needed to escape. But now I want to go back to where we were.
November 18, 2025 at 2:13 AM
I thought I needed to escape. But now I want to go back to where we were.
today i thought of her with such a yearning that i hadn’t felt since we were last together.
November 10, 2025 at 1:21 AM
today i thought of her with such a yearning that i hadn’t felt since we were last together.
every time i drink i have too much too fast
November 4, 2025 at 7:30 AM
every time i drink i have too much too fast
i’ve slept all day avoiding this problem plaguing my mind. it’s like the moon trying to chase the sun but never being able to catch up. i’m always running away from this issue, and sometimes it becomes far too great for me to want to keep treading.
October 22, 2025 at 5:15 AM
i’ve slept all day avoiding this problem plaguing my mind. it’s like the moon trying to chase the sun but never being able to catch up. i’m always running away from this issue, and sometimes it becomes far too great for me to want to keep treading.
i think there’s good reason to believe that nothing is worth it. if someone believes all of this is for something it’s fine too, but as humans i feel like it’s in our nature to think of the past and future as a way for survival. we are able to think outside our instincts, which leads to this.
October 17, 2025 at 10:41 PM
i think there’s good reason to believe that nothing is worth it. if someone believes all of this is for something it’s fine too, but as humans i feel like it’s in our nature to think of the past and future as a way for survival. we are able to think outside our instincts, which leads to this.
i got two compliments today. it was a good day.
October 15, 2025 at 5:49 AM
i got two compliments today. it was a good day.
i almost killed myself with diphenhydramine.
October 14, 2025 at 7:48 AM
i almost killed myself with diphenhydramine.
im thinking of dying my hair with some blonde ridges but uhhhhhhhhh idk
October 14, 2025 at 6:40 AM
im thinking of dying my hair with some blonde ridges but uhhhhhhhhh idk