the trunk of my car is full of bones that I find in the woods

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fic update: Dazai joins them for a 32k word chapter.
Fyolai/stalking/mutually toxic relationship/stalker Nikolai/Fyodor has religious psychosis

🔞Heed all tags and warnings. I’m not trying to pass this off as a romance. They’re TERRIBLE people.

I had to take an opportunity to talk shit about Sigmund Freud for two paragraphs while writing toxic violent smut

I need to draw him naked now heh…hehe…. ha…hahaha HAHAHAHA AAAAHAHAHA AAAAAAAAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHA
#bsd121

The fact that he looks this healthy and lively (Running with swords! Swords are heavy!) after resurrecting just further cements my belief that he takes life spans with the bodies he subsumes. He doesn’t have the lines and darkness under his eyes that he has always had. #bsd121

Nikocest drawing I’m mailing to a pal 🤑🐎💸
#bsd

the last time we had to wait two months for a new bsd chapter, we got amenogozen melting people and Fyodor looking like all of his blood was replaced with conjugated estrogens so idk what to expect this time.

I feel like Fyodor was early 30’s the first time he died and will always have the same physical age, weight, hair length, and existing illnesses that he had the first time he died.

I can forcibly rip myself out of the worst mental states by remembering I have a hot partner. It’s like I come screaming back from hell when it happens.

I left out how I project onto Poe because it sounds insane and I don’t want to get put on trial and burned by the mischaracterization hunters for writing au fics
#bsd

WHY DO YOU HATE ME

this is Atsushi’s eclipse

a dream realized atop a pile of corpses OKAY GRIFFITH
#bsd120

making my love and I on picrew again so they know it’s real. I DON’T GIVE A DAMMB. I will never outgrow picrew.

I’m deactivating twt again so I can do whatever I want