At least I managed to grab the pre-orders I wanted as my stay week present to myself despite the excitement and annoyance.
Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to 🙃)

Ugh I am so fricking annoyed especially after speaking to two customer service reps in the space of 30 minutes. I'll try again later today or even tomorrow and hopefully then the block will be lifted.

....or even if it's because I'm making these purchases in the middle of the night. It's still not on my dude....like I moved money from my savings, was adding the MFA codes and everything so I was prepared to buy them.

I honestly wish I had never taken this work on....and that I wasn't the only person who knew how to do it. it would make things so much easier having someone to share this with.

excuse me while I now try and sleep off this post seizure headache and try not to stress about the work that will now have to wait till Monday

I just need to take it day by day...remind her how much I love her and get as many cuddles as I can while I can.
Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?

We have a bit of a reprive for me to get my head around it but she seems so fragile after coming back from the vet that I don't think we'll get the full 3 weeks somehow.
And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?

*assed.

I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point.
If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.

I'm so tired of trying to check with my mum only to get nothing back. Why should I i keep trying is she can't be asked?

Yes that's no excuse for how I acted to my dad but neither my sister or mum not having checked in with me recently enough to understand.
I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.

Honestly adulting is so exhausting. If I didn't have Stray kids (& 3racha's) songs playing during my work days I don't think I would be able to bear it half as much.

On the positive side I am looking forward to my packages of Stray kids merch coming (even if some may take longer than others). I just have to restrain the urge to buy more for the good of my bank account till next pay day. 😭😭

My mental health has been so bad the last few days...not sure everything if it's because something else has triggered me recently but it's left me crying for no reason and sleeping way more than normal which are warning signs. Hopefully when I go back to work I'll even out again.

So that's a hard pass on not restricting you me thinks....now back to my regular stray kids scrolling.

Lmfao yeah because you really love me when you rarely interact with me otherwise. I don't fucking think so.

Might have managed to talk my way out of it by agreeing to look after my elderly sick cat...depending on what my sister says.
I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.