i kinda wish i met some people in my life at an earlier stage. maybe things wouldve gone smoother had our paths crossed earlier

my best shot would be guerilla streams but even so, i dont know when to stream so it doesnt clash with my day to day schedule while still working fine for both my actual timezone and my usual sleep wchedule

ive been thinking to start streaming again in the near ish future but its also. pretty tricky to organise/schedule with my situation now, and the only way things would ever get better on that aspect is if we can find a cure to my chronic illness in the first place

i really do look up to her, and wished i could try streaming as well because i wanted friends, and just sharing about things that passionate me with a small audience. i dont expect to blow up in popularity or anything

a lot of it is because im actually shy as hell, but as much as it somewhat contrasts with my past experience as a streamer, i donr enjoy having a public presence. i think streaming is only different to me for reasons similar to what pushed mousey to try out streaming

even aka who you may know ive technically? known? for a long time, we only formally met in august 2022 back when i worked w them on my original model

but if you look back, ive been lurking since probably like 2018 or something back during our jshk era (around the same time)

... throw in sherlock for funsies and um. inference Still Does Not Know (they all kiss and fu—)

for the longest time, he had no clue that ronald had always reciprocated his feelings starting from back when they both were in the military

—during their time together in the military, and id def hear them out on this

inference gets to see ronald again after years of no contact, and its ughh ): oh i love you ronference...

i will not repeat myself about the salonpas. rattles the bars of my enclosure..,. please im not insane.,.,...